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HAPPY BIRTHDAY WATEE

2012-01-26T17:29:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th birthday, Watee baby ♥
Hope you're blessed with happiness all year round and please be a good wife and mummy. I enjoyed myself with the rest at dblo last night. Hope you had fun cos it was awesome! My birthday, again? Nak? Haha

I guess a picture speaks a thousand words. So here we go.

p.s These including the rest of the unposted photos, I swear, macam gambar-gambar cerita Hangover. Lol

FRIGGIN' EARGASM

2012-01-24T01:01:00.004+08:00

GETTIN A LIL WASTED

2012-01-23T00:36:00.027+08:00

Saturday.
I enjoyed the heavy rain. Cats & dogs. Just so cooling. Too bad I didn't get to sleep in. We decided to take a breather after quite some time.

Bugis street first just to waste some time then dinner at ljs and to fulfill our cravings, Yan and I decided to indulge in Marble Slab ice cream. Many flavours were out so I chose chocolate swiss and dbl choc something with the usual mix-ins, nutella + snickers. Heavenly, as always. Pint of it. Then we headed to town to meet Watee & Naz. They suggested drinking so okay... let's go Clarke Quay. It's been awhile since I last consumed alcohol. So okay la just to warm up our bodies in the chilly weather. I enjoyed the scenery. It was pretty relaxing. Quite boring. A lil. Then around 2 we decided to cab home. That's about it, a simple Saturday. And we didn't even finish the Glen's Vodka. Haha

ART OF GOOGLE

2012-01-18T15:53:00.004+08:00

So if you have caught the act of fool and silly in twitter back then in November, probably my tweethearts would know what went on... You guys would probably remember twitter account Isapbuah who actually tried to condemn me.

What happened?
So I tweeted about friends and this Isapbuah decided to be a stalker and observed my tweets until SHE decided to terasa with my tweets and then found fault with me. In the first place, I don't even know Isapbuah exists and then she said I'm the stalker? Contradicting enough, they said I terasa? Eh come on I tweeted about the people who liked my husband's status insulting me in facebook and there were a few people so why did you have to terasa? But well, admitting to it yes it was for a few girls and korang dah kenapa stalk tweets aku sampai buat a general twitter account just to check on what I've been tweeting? And then tiba-tiba call aku tah mana dapat number (which I have guessed who were behind it) then never wanting to admit who you were and still have the cheek to call and insult me through the phone like some kids who don't have better things to do. And this particular person whom I recon your voice, I'm not stupid dear. I know who you are lah tkya nak suara jantan kat phone. I hung up after wasting enough time entertaining their immaturity then they tweeted me asking to meet if tak puas hati. Aku tak kenal kau, aku nak jumpa kau buat apa?

So then I saved the number who pranked call me. And as I frequent whatsapp, I observed the person's status. I saved the number as Isapbuah Stalker Rabak. And guess what I found out one day. The fool decided to post her boyfriend's name as her status, and how did I know? Google did the dirty job for me.

Spot it

Google it

Found it

Hi Netasher! (Spot the name under her links *hint*)

And sepandai kepala otak aku, memang aku dah agak confirm kau kene mengene dengan dorang. I would have exposed your friend's similar general account but I choose not to because the number is yours. And I do know those other two, whom I shall refer to as SH and SY, were behind this pasal aku tahu korang nya perangai keanak-anakan tapi nak buat macamane kan dah sah suka terasa sikit-sikit nak terasa pastu stalk tweets orang pastu carik pasal dengan orang pasal bende merepek. And okay lah sebaik hati aku taknak expose the main person, I guess I will unintentionally expose her with this proof.

Yes, you. You want to find me cos I exposed you? Well think for yourself ah. Kau ape hal? First si isapbuah call carik pasal dgn aku pastu suruh aku private twitter account aku kalau tknk korang stalk, aku private. Pastu masih nak stalk jugak? Haha cute la korang. Subscribe sekali la twitter aku jadi korang receive every tweets yang aku tweet, k?
I am sorry for doing this but you deserve it, Net. I never did anything to you, at all. Never. I don't even know you. But you decided to do this shit to me. For them. Grats to you, your name and your general account twitter is exposed. Nak letak number kau sekali tak? K tk payah lah.

p/s It is very unfortunate that I didn't screenshot the tweets & mentions by Isapbuah. Seriously unfortunate.

WELCOME TO OUR FAMILY

2012-01-15T15:24:00.036+08:00

As a dutiful replacement, my parents decided to own another kitty. And we decided to call it Garfield due to its full resemblance, almost.

So the other day I followed mum and dad to the pet shop at Pasir Ris to collect Garfield. He was 4 months plus then. And he was the most fluffy among all the other Persian cats his age there. Heard that they could only import cats after 2 months so yeap, they are all still baby kitties. So anyway, today is his 5 months birthday! I swear he is so irresistible. His fur is damn soft like carpet. And he loves to be carried like a baby. Damn cute la, seriously.

Anyway, Rooney will always be in our hearts. xx

TWO MONTHS TO A YEAR

2012-01-10T16:01:00.019+08:00

As a thoughtful commemoration, today our relationship stands strong for already 3 years and 3 months. Woop woop~

And also, in two months we'll be reaching a year wedding anni and it means alot to me cos we've been through too much horror, yes horror, throughout this one whole year of marriage. Not intending to make it sound like this marriage sucks, but based on everyone's knowledge, life has ups and downs. And this probably have had the most downs so far. And in a month I'm turning 19! Haha okay baru 19 je okay wait it means something also. Cos after 19, there's no more teen years. Omg~~~ So now yall know why every 10th is special to me, yes?

OFFICIALLY DISCHARGED

2012-01-09T15:39:00.032+08:00

Hi so today I had my follow-up check up on the operation last month and doctor has officially discharged me. Hahaha k so actually I thought I was already discharged. zzz

So yeap, surprisingly the doctor didn't do any vaginal check for infections whatsoever so I'm saved! Have always feared vaginal checks. Brr! Anyway recently I've been rather close with an old buddy, whom we had been "sisters" in secondary school. Haha! And we happened to share the same fate of being a young mum at the same time so yeap, she accompanied me and we've been hanging out quite often.
These days, or perhaps in life, friends are so hard to trust. And majority came and left in my life. People I put trust and faith in, betrayed me. What can I say? I'm a nobody anyway. So I personally feel that people of the same perception as me, preferably young mothers themselves, could understand me better and would make better friends. (Excluding that one particular young mum yang macam paham korang pandai-pandai teka)
So then in the evening we had dinner at BB Central with our husbands and chilled somewhere near before heading home.

On a lighter note, I hope the friends I have now won't betray me like those who did. I have totally had enough of two-faced people and being too nice to everyone that my head becomes a nice mat for people to step on.
Trust nobody but be nice and friendly. My impromptu motto. Hahaha

GONNA MARRY THE NIGHT

2012-01-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

It's a beautiful evening. 21 minutes past midnight.

To be honest, I haven't really gotten over the fact that Rooney has departed. *sobs* Aku hanya mampu redha... Anyway I was too consumed by the agony of the loss of Rooney that I forgot to share about yesterday's wedding invitation. So yes, with the short sleep we had gotten we still managed to attend Yan's campmate's wedding at Haig Road. We missed the arrival of the newly-weds but we did got to meet them when they've changed to their 2nd outfit, itu pun dorang dah potong kek and salam-salam untuk balik. Zzz.. We waited hours slacking at one part of the void deck for them and ended up meeting them only for a glance. Well most of all... Selamat Pengantin Baru Min & wife :)

Besides that, Yan's friends were so intrigued by the presence of Ray. Hahaha they were all so eager taking turns to carry him and take pictures. Ray, afterall, likes the attention and chaos. He just loves being tend to.

Grabbed this pic from yan's friend hehe

I like this pic cos Ray looks so handsome here hehehe

Idky his friends damn sweet one. Dorang yang offer nak amekkan gambar kita trio. Upon us reaching. Haha

REST IN PEACE

2012-01-01T21:28:00.001+08:00

Today marks the day of a new year... And the departure of our dearly beloved family cat, Rooney.

Sigh... How I wish I was there throughout his last breaths. Only my family got the chance to witness him dying. And as how mum had described to me, his 'nazak' seemed suffering. Idky it would be since he's a cat free of sins unlike humans but it's just so devastating that he's forever gone. I guess it truly is already time for him to leave us. 11 cat years young equals to 61 human years old. He's already an old kitty. He was the first we ever owned. The first we ever loved and pampered. Then the other cats joined in and he didn't like it. He hated new cats, especially kittens. And after about 5 years we had to give away every other kitty except him. Cause he's special. He got to experience a baby in the house. And it gives me giggles thinking how he'd runaway from Ray everytime we bring them together. He's so afraid, or perhaps shy. And also, how he loved chewing on plastic flowers and leaves off of fake plants on table tops. Chilling in the toilet was his hobby. I guess he enjoyed the cool ground and he'd catch water droplets from taps. I guess he got a thrill in doing so. It is rather silly and gets me laughing all the way but sigh.... He was awesome. Oh and not forgetting, how I'd scare him silly by making smooching sounds and the way he reacted, was just epic. And it kills me knowing how he left so early when I have always prayed for his health and lengthy life.

Rooney. I'm sorry Ray and I weren't there to say goodbye. It really breaks my heart and I have yet to breakdown and cry on this matter. Still holding back the tears.. Trying to stay strong. A start of the new year expecting surrounding happiness and you just have to go. But it's okay. You have been a great cat and we love you countless.. Eventhough you're just a local breed, you're the cutest ever!
As I heave a heavy sigh, I pray Al-fatihah for you. Rest in peace ♥

BOUND TO YOU

2012-01-01T03:24:00.000+08:00

I wanna sing this. As beautifully as Christina Aguilera.

HAPPY 2012

2012-01-01T02:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!
Okay as promised, I've made a vlog. But... youtube isn't co-operating so it shall be delayed.

Lemme share a brief story on what I did last night.

So I thought I was gonna be super deprived for staying all the way at home but thankfully I decided to join my family for dinner at Cineleisure's Es Teler 77 last minute. It was pree awkward cause every other teenager, majority, were with friends while I was with my family but well... I love my family, what can I say. Mum then bought me Famous Amos cookies as a New year's gift then we walked around town just to witness the bizarre lights and street acts. There was also a countdown celebration party outside Ngee Ann City, free admission and it was tempting me with their club music blasting and everything. So then before 11 my parents sent me home and I finished settling with Ray right on time to watch the countdown on channel 5 and see the fireworks. Sigh.. 8 minutes of fireworks on tv wasn't very exciting. I barely watched it. I didn't feel a thing when it struck midnight, like the atmosphere and vibe aren't there. Oh well, pity husband since he's busy guarding his camp..

Town on New year's eve

Happy to be going out on nye :)

Ayyan nak nasik goreng

Twenty-twelve!

What happened to twitter minutes after midnight

Face of 2012 *smiles*

I'M SO LONELY BROKEN ANGEL

2011-12-31T16:31:00.000+08:00

JUST A DREAM

2011-12-31T16:23:00.000+08:00

This is a story about two very different people, only surviving cause they are apart. ♥

COUNTING CROWS

2011-12-30T19:53:00.001+08:00

So I bet lotsa you guys are hyped for tmr's evening.. It is afterall the countdown to 2012.
YA ALLAH LAJUNYA MASA BERLALU!!

Hmmm... I've been thinking to myself. I kept on reminiscing these days and it has taught me one thing. Learn to let go and embrace the beauty of life. Why am I being so sentimental right now? Well the year's ending so as part of my resolutions I am also including a happy-go-lucky package. Yes, I need the whole package of a positive attitude. Realising how much I've poured tears back then due to heartbreaks and lies, and also the terrible rocky road I'm driving on, I hereby demand myself to be free from anger, sadness or stress. It is most definitely one of the toughest things to do but I can try. I think a happy girl makes a beautiful woman. Wouldn't you all like it when you're facing a problematic issue and you only just smile and go with the flow.. Not caring less about being disappointed with it. Okay it is rather psychotic to not show the negative expressions but what I'm tryna say is to be more happy and don't let things easily overwhelm my thoughts with disagreement. I am sick and tired of stress as I know it is one of the reasons why my 2nd baby didn't live. I am also putting aside thoughts of lunatics tryna sink my love boat in any way cause I know one of the parcels in marriage is of course, people who tryna ruin it.

So anyway, most of you are probably heading to parties and getting wasted tomorrow. Me? Maybe I'll be staying home and watching the countdown on live telecast instead or if I'm allowed, perhaps go out with a girlfriend of mine along with our children. The thought of major crowds and public transport disgust me. Hahaha! Okay I have planned if I'm staying home tmr I'll be making a New Year vlog post so tune in.. *winks*

WHAT'S HAPPENING?

2011-12-29T21:48:00.002+08:00

This week is the last week of the year... 2012 is coming. Are yall prepared for it? I mean, come on. I bet everyone has had alot of losses this year, mainly friends.

Hmm... 2011 has been a rather momentous year for me since I've learnt alot. Yeah, not like I haven't learnt new things in every other year but this year's different. Much different. The challenges and obstacles are rare and the only thing I'd wish for 2012 is for the new year to be more lenient to me. I need a break. Apart from the life-changing hurdles I've overcome mostly in family-wise issues, there comes friendship issues. We can never run away from friends-related problems cause especially for us girls, we always end up with unreasonable and sometimes, nonsensical conflicts among each other. I conclude that I've lost some friends but I don't find it that degrading since I can live without friends. It is true that I am quite deprived of close girlfriends but none can seem to stay close to me for long. No matter how nice or cautious I've been, taking in consideration of their feelings and such. So for 2012, I hope to meet new girls to befriend with. Sincere and honest ones, to be exact. It may not be new people I've just met, but perhaps people I've met but didn't thought would be there for me at times of need. Yes, eventhough I'm a family girl now it doesn't mean that I'm mentally old that I don't need friends to hangout with once in awhile. Husband's busy most of the time so I do need companions to fill my days with smiles and laughter, along with the joy of a growing son. Ray is gonna reach a year young next year so I'm looking forward to see my angel walk and maybe talk a little. *giggles*

Oh and another one. I am determined to lose weight and obviously not by illegal and unhealthy means but the natural ways which are jogging, going to the gym and going on a crash diet, something like that.

With that, I have just completed one-third of my new year's resolutions without me realizing.

XMAS

2011-12-26T21:12:00.011+08:00

So what I did on Christmas was.......

Hmm k it was a pree last minute plan. Impromptu. Drizzling, as usual. I was craving for Marble Slab ice cream so the nearest is obviously at Causeway Point and we decided to head there - Yan, Ray and I.
Fulfilling our craving for nutella mixed ice cream was to no avail cos nutella was unavailable in their outlet. But the new combo we tried was spectacular! A pint of rocher + cotton candy flavours with mix-ins of nestle crunch and hershey syrup.... Splendid!
Then husband wanted some cookies so we bought Famous Amos. And I enjoyed experiencing the new look of cwp eventhough I know it has been quite long already since they've renovated. I kinda miss the whole vintage look of cwp yaknow..... The one we used to go when we were kids. But the new look is awesome since it's very modern and I can't even recognize the mall anymore! With new outlets like Uniqlo and err...others it is definitely a better-looking mall, much better than Bpp.

Okay that's all for my xmas experience.. It's nice giving a review of a new mall hahaha

XMAS COMING

2011-12-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

I don't have any plans for Christmas!! :(

Okay macam lah kita ni celebrate xmas but nah.. Just commemorating the public occasion, being at town and enjoying the lightings and xmas trees with Yan and Ayyan. Hmm.. So what are you guys doing this weekend?

Have fun!

HONEY PIES

2011-12-21T17:25:00.005+08:00

It's quite happening when you face a competition.. Be it at school, work, or in a contest.

Hi omg it's 21st December, can you believe it? This Sunday is Christmas so I bet there are crazy sales going on at town which I guess I'll have to give a miss. So as a Christmas wish, not that I celebrate it or anything, I'd like to say.... What I want for Christmas is.........to win Ray $50 voucher to buy him cute sandals! Hahaha okay so if you guys wanna know why I want Ray to win in the iStylo.Kidz Stylo Milo Competition, it's because I've been eyeing on these few awesome adorable sandals which I would love to see one pair fitting Ray's cute lil feet! Want to see how cute they are?? Here.

And what do you think of this super adorable Vans shoes??

Sigh... The price kills me inside. It's just so expensive but it would be great to own one for Ray since his daddy has a similar pair! The adult size of course. But anyways, I'm really glad with the number of "likes" Ray has gotten so far. All you supporters are the best! But thinking about it.. It won't really matter if he wins or not. If he does, syukur alhamdulillah. If not, well atleast we tried. And if you all don't notice, I enjoy participating in these kinda contests. Hahaha! Participated twice and the first one was MDIS's contest which I won 3rd and the 2nd one is the Chic Mag shit which Idk what happened I think cmi also la. Well if we don't try, we die. Okay that's such a lame quote but yeap that's about it. *winks*

BRING IT ON

2011-12-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

Cute tak, cute tak? Kalau cute, click the photo and "like" please. Hehehe :)
Rayyan will gladly appreciate your support. Thank you~ ♥

FOLLOW UP

2011-12-20T21:37:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone :) December is coming to an end. Are you prepared for 2012?

Hmm.. Okay so I have nothing very interesting to blog about.. Except that I have yet to post about the jemputan at jb that time and recently, I attended another wedding and I'm just waiting for the photos! So just a lil congratulations over here to my bro for promoting to Sec 5 but... We are all encouraging him to take up higher nitec course since it's gonna be a faster route.
Anyway for a brief on 2012, I have a few events lined up.

February
•USS with the cousins(in-laws) on the 4th. It's gonna be awesome since I can ride the roller coasters! Fuckyeah
•I'm turning 19 on the 10th!!

March
•1st wedding anniversary on the 10th!

July
•Rayyan's first birthday on the 7th ☺

Okay so I'm hoping I'll be able to get my driver's license by end of 2012. And if husband permits, I'm gonna take up a dip course. Anyway speaking of which, I was fantasizing the other day about wanting to kahwin again. No, not nikah. Kahwin. Yes, I'd like to relive the moments of bersanding. I was thinking perhaps by 30 when I've some extra cash I'd definitely celebrate my wedding anniversary the grand way. Naik pelamin, kompang, perhaps at a hotel or something. Hahaha well why not? We will see..

Here's something for you guys. See if you could catch a particular word he actually mentioned in this video :)

OPERATION ABORT

2011-12-17T16:51:00.060+08:00

The thought and wonder of what happened in the operation theatre still lingers in my mind. After two jabs of anesthesia into my iv and roughly about 3-4 breaths of the gas, I was fully unconscious and unaware of what happened throughout the entire procedure. I awoke an hour after my op, which was 11pm. I asked the doctor if I could see my baby. I mean come on what do I expect of a 13mm fetus? The doctor only said there's "no baby" but only blood clot or something like that. Hmm...

So hi everyone. If you don't already know, I had a missed miscarriage so I had to undergo an abortion to clear my uterus before further complications. It was a rather devastating occurrence but I understand why it has to be this way. I was admitted on 15 dec, the day of my check up. I had an u/s appointment and yet again, there was no heartbeat present and the baby did not grow. And to correct my statement, I was 7 weeks plus last week and still was. I was very afraid for the op. I mean, who wouldn't be? Okay perhaps those who willingly go for abortion. But not me. I am forever against it. What was I to do? Keep a non-living baby? Guess not.

No heartbeat.

That's the baby.

This hurts a hell lot cos it's at the wrist! :(

I presume that Ray is all mine now. I can shower him with all my love and care. I know his lil sibling is waiting for me in Heaven. You are forever in my heart, baby.

And just as my baby left me, Ray starts to show interest in his foot. Yes, either sucking or biting his foot thumb. Alala tayang, later you get adik okay. Not now. Mummy tak cukup kuat la.... :(
On the brighter side, Ray has become more brilliant now. He walks more and stands often on his walker, plays peek-a-boo, mumbles alot and is just super active! I am very happy to have such an adorable son and I am proud of it. Really.

My two precious boys♥

BABY YOU CAN DO IT

2011-12-07T16:16:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

It's certainly been awhile. Recently came back from Johor for a wedding ceremony which we stayed for 3d2n. Will gladly update on that later on. So I just had to go for an emergency check up at kkh since I've been having lower abdominal cramps and spotting. It just scares me and adding on to that, I keep insisting on carrying Ray and taking care of him more when I shouldn't cos my womb has somehow lowered. Which is bad. But what is a mother to do, right. So on Monday, husband brought me for a walk-in checkup which the appointment was supposed to be next week. I kinda got the shock of my life.
Well what's new? I had a transvaginal ultrasound which was a first time for me. Haha! Shy, obviously. Although a woman doctor did it. And then..........

K based on my LMP, I should be 12 weeks but it only measured for 6 weeks plus. What stopped my heart for a second was that they couldn't detect a fetal heartbeat. The doctor tried to assure me to be as optimistic as possible but with the possibility of either I miscalculated the dates and I may have ovulated later, or that baby might probably stop growing and there's a chance of miscarriage. Well the only thing I could do now is pray. Kalau memang bukan rezeki, redha je lah. Tetap bersyukur jugak kerana Allah lebih mengetahui kemampuan kita untuk menanggung dua anak sekarang. So my next check up next week would determine if the baby lives. And if I'm gonna be a mother of 2 soon. Well, insya'allah. Whatever will be, will be. If there's still no heartbeat then I guess baby no. 2 will remain as a memory in my heart. And I would probably meet him/her in Heaven. Perhaps? Hehe well anyway, the doctor forgot to gave me a copy of the u/s which I could see how tiny the fetus was. And the shape of it. So.. that's about it :3

Oh anyway, Ray turns 5 months today!! ~

THE OTHER DAY

2011-11-28T16:42:00.000+08:00

Hi everybody! It's been a rainy season. Well I guess an alternate to snow since we don't have winter here :3 So I have missed out on some updates. I shall share them with you today.

The other day I think like, a week back I decided it's finally time to shave it off. Yes! Shave Ray's hair off since it's not doing any good progress. So my parents and I brought him to shave since husband's in camp. And it was very amazing that Ray did not even make a the slightest noise of fuss or anything. He plainly enjoyed it! Usually he always do the tahlil yaknow move his head right and left like berzikir whenever he's irritated but this time his head kept still. Hahaha good job, sweetie.

So then that night we headed to newton for a supreme feast on seafood which I haven't had for ages. Hmm as usual. Baby squid, chilli crab, sting ray, tom yam soup, cockles, some veges, sweet chicken.... Mmmm thinking of it makes me crave for more. Of course I ate in moderation to avoid puking everything out after that. Yep, I've learnt to eat in smaller portions cos right now baby doesn't like to eat much. Haha. I'll always end up puking.

Then since it got late and it was pouring, we decided to head to IMM since its closer instead of town. Window shopping then we decided to indulge in Swensen's ice cream for dessert. Heavy dessert! Two giant earthquakes and I chose the flavours! Yummmm~ Heavenly.

So that was it. My cravings for the day were fulfilled =)

HAAGEN DAZS JOURNEY OF INDULGENCE

2011-11-26T23:13:00.030+08:00

So Christmas is around the corner!! ~ ~ ~

Thanks to Rynaque for the wonderful opportunity! I guess I'll have to say, luck has been on my side and my ice cream craving has been fulfilled. But not enough, in fact. So basically, I participated in @rynaque's twitter contest to fill out the incomplete sentence on Haagen Dazs and thanks to that, I won myself invites for the journey! Of course, husband was my date for the Thursday night. (:

We glammed up for that cold night and we were actually late. It's been raining cats and dogs lately, so it caused us the delay. So luckily I got to change my slot to the later one. Which was at 9pm. And the experience..... interesting! Of course one of the main things we realised was that we were the only malays! Haha

So what was the journey all about? Hmm.... A ride on an open top bus while being served haagen dazs ice cream, some chocolates and champagne. It was chilly! Cos it was drizzling throughout the ride so we were kinda drenched abit. Haha but it was joyful! Husband and I loooove the cookies and chocolate flavour. It's just the best. I tasted abit of champagne since I'm preggy but I'd like to try of course. Ugh.... just like beer. As we rode along the Orchard road with the christmas lightings and decorations, it was worthwhile. Despite the drizzle. I was shivering. Really. Oh yeah there was one part where the host asked us how long we have been dating, and I answered halfway saying "3 years......" and before I could say "and we're married" the host went on about we could get engaged soon and stuff... -.- hahaha well I guess people won't believe that we're married anyway.

So after that half an hour journey, we headed to chill by the esplanade bay. Just a lil camwhoring and just be enraptured by the tantalizing scenery of our city. Then the song "this city" played in my mind. Haha yesss "This city. Is my city. And I loooove it, yeah I loooove it"

Well then we headed home and called it a day. ^^

FRIENDSHIP

2011-11-18T14:15:00.002+08:00

So I bet every teenage girl has issues in friendship. Lately I've been saying how it's hard to trust people and how I don't wish to get too attached to friends. With that, I'd like to share with you about the people I truly care about.. No matter how they seem to not be there for me most of the time. I still love them.

First of all, it's obviously my one and only bestfriend, Ummairah Jamal. Yes, her. It's funny how we met in tumblr then we.... err remind me again how we exchanged numbers? If I'm not wrong, from tumblr we exchanged numbers. And then we started texting and she was kinda a great sms friend. Hahaha and finally we met one day outside 313. I will never get bored of telling you how we first met cause it's so sweet. Then we went karaoke once w aynn and yanna and then we went for a holiday at Bintan with my family. She started to come over to my place w myra on a random basis when I was pregnant cos she knows it will be a trouble for me to travel around. Even now, she does come over at times. But what I'm upset about is that I couldn't be there for her all the time. Yeah I get it. I'm a housewife. I'm not the typical teen girl whose life is all about enjoyment. She apparently have other girlfriends who she could party with every other nights, to go swimming with, to drink and get drunk with... And everything else most girls usually do. Which I used to do. And she's now much closer to Fatyn and of course, I am jealous. But I guess I can't do anything about it since I'm never there for her. So yeap, overall I'm still glad she's still by my side although not literally by my side but mentally and emotionally. Although she always seems busy with her friends, it's okay. I guess it's meant to be... :) I still love her to the max.

Then comes another young mummy... Nurul Afidah. We never go out together before. Cause good enough, we both have restricting hubbies who control us. Haha so we both understand each other. We share stories. We don't bitch unnecessarily, that's the truth. But I personally feel like we know each other deeply. We met only...... twice. Hahah! But I guess somehow it's a good thing since it prevents our friendship from drifting apart. I mean, in the sense that we don't get too attached for going out together all the time like some people, then once we don't go out together we assume the other party hates us. Get it? I do wish we could hang out often. Probably not now... Probably not even later. Even if we have to stay as cyber friends, it'd still be fine. I just feel that she's there for me at times. And that's all that matters.

Yep, so it's just the two of them who I truly care about. No one else. Friendship and bestfriends doesn't mean we go out often together or we take zillions of photos together then you can conclude we are bestfriends. No. And friendship does not mean getting jealous over the littlest things and wanting to make friends with every of my friend. No. I don't favour those kind of friendship. I want a decent, simple yet generous one. And also, friendship doesn't mean having to mix with those "famous" group of people and boasting about it. No. You do know I have no fame, so don't bother talking to me if you expect to be popular or.. or be known by other people through me cos I'm not miss popular. Not at all.

CATCHING UP

2011-11-17T15:26:00.001+08:00

I had some free time today so for your reading pleasure, I've updated with hari raya haji and hospital posts =)
They'll be on the earlier posts since I scheduled them at particular dates.

Anyway it seems that I totally forgot to announce that Ray has turned 4 months last Monday and I'm happy for him! He's been sucha brilliant child despite being only 4 months. And of course as a mother I am proud of him. The 8th, my lil sister turned 8yo unfortunately I couldn't celebrate her birthday with the family since I'm over at the in-laws'. On the 10th, which was the first day of Ray in hospital was Yan and I's 8 months of marriage. Eventhough it's only 8 months, we've been through tsunamis and hurricanes. Wow! How strong we are to still overcome those challenges. God willing, we will last till the end. It is afterall said to be that teen marriages are bound to face lotsa risks and major issues. But let's prove we can make it. Insya'allah.

I've changed my blog layout, as you've seen. Hehe it's not an original but well thanks to the hot biggity blog webpage I'm able to customize to my expectation. I've also decided not to link anyone but I do take note of certain blog urls for my own reading contentment. One thing I'd like to highlight. Come on, people. If you'd like to have friends with fame, I'm not the one you should befriend. I don't have any popularity. I may not be the girl everyone's been talking about all year. No, I'm not. I'm just an average avid blogger who shares my life story with readers I don't even know. But I'm thankful for that. For having strangers who are interested to know more about my life and make it a guideline for them one way or another. And I love my readers for that.
Anyway, it's already mid November. I'm putting hopes on still going to USS this December. I mean come on. I longed for it when I was pregnant. To go after I'm done with confinement. But yet again, I still haven't gotten my wish. I MUST go before my tummy gets bigger. But obviously I'm stubborn cos I'm gonna be hella nausea once I ride the roller coasters. Hahaha! Nvm. I want both my children to experience going to USS while in my tummy. I know that's kinda ridiculous but what else could a mother craving to ride roller coasters ask for?

THE LIFE I LIVE

2011-11-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

Look how cheerful we trio seemed =)

Well, after series of events that happened I decided to come clean. Sorry for the sudden and unexpected things I did that triggered the anger in both of you but I just wanna be alone.. I wanna keep it low to avoid misinterpretation of my good intentions. What I did was probably not really what the real me would do but I guess people change and I wanna change for the better. I realise where I stand so I shall back off. Truth be told, I miss yall but well let's just put it as I'm dead or something, k?

So anyway it's been super long since I updated my blog.... Why? Cause I've been superbly busy! Gosh the exhaustion I face... Life seems hectic. So I have yet to share about my wondrous trip to kampung during Hari Raya Haji which was super memorable and I have to say, I miss kampung so much already. And then the recent incident where Rayyan was admitted to hospital and I had a long stay there just to accompany my lil angel. Hmm.. Now's probably not a good time to mass post on the past events but I promise you guys I will! Life hasn't been good so far but I guess this is it. The part where life is on the downs and where the weight is too heavy to go up. Nevermind. I remain patient.
I desperately wanna change my blogskin since it's getting old and I'm bored of it. But I'm out of ideas. Any kind soul who's a whiz kid in editing and creating blog templates to help me out? =)

Anyway from what I have learnt, I shall not trust people easily and I shall not get too attached to friends. My life is all about my kid, my husband, and my fetus growing in my tummy. That's all that matters and I have my parents and siblings to support me through thick and thin. I don't mean to hurt anyone through this journey cos all I've ever did was be there to give good advice and gave some support when my friends had issues. I was there for them. But overall, people don't appreciate. That's just about it. I guess I knew it from the start. Friends come and go...

SHIVER FEVER

2011-11-14T11:31:00.000+08:00

Hi I thank God for today.. For the health of my son and for the settled problems.

So what happened? Rayyan was admitted to the hospital. It was pretty tragic. Him being 4 months and already have to undergo hospital treatment... It hurts. As a mother. To see him having to go through this. So he was having high fever before he was admitted and we brought him to the doctor but it didn't help then on the evening of 9th Nov as he was having diarrhea the whole day, blood was present in his stool so we decided to rush to KKH before anything bad happens. And just as I expected, he got admitted after midnight and me being so worried and panicked, prayed every moment I could for him to recover quick throughout the 4 days stay there. Don't get me wrong, I did wish he won't get admitted but he was dehydrated and he refused to drink so there was no other choice.

The stay at hospital was quite emotional. Other than the devastation of my son having to go through high fever and diarrhea which hurts a lot, obviously a lot since he's a baby.. Then him having to experience iv drip for hydration and antibiotics. There were other depressing issues I had to overcome which are personal but just to share with you, I been through shits. Sigh.... Thank God it's all over now and I'm pretty happy with the situation now besides some other unsettled unhappiness going on but I'll cope. I have faced the pretty impossible for someone my age. 4 nights having to sleep on the hard foldable bed, with different babies crying every night... Stressful, if you asked. But somehow I miss the whole hospital experience, too. Haha can't believe I'm saying this.. Because when I was there I was wishing all day to finally go home.

Overall the experience was appealing since I got to meet a lot of people... The mothers of babies warded. Friendly nurses and doctors. Annoying nurses and doctors. Adorable little boys who cry every night looking for their mums. Even babies left every night by their heartless mothers to survive the nights alone. It was kinda disappointing. But my grandma did a good job attending to this particular baby whenever his parents left. I bet my grandma felt like kidnapping him to call her own. Hahaha! I guess it was a tragic yet warmhearted struggle.

First time being in a baby ward filled with cots

my sweetheart with his weak face :(

Iv on his foot

His fatty bom bom friend

Love you the most

HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

2011-11-08T12:51:00.126+08:00

Syukur Alhamdulillah my Hari Raya Haji this year, I got the opportunity to celebrate with my parents, siblings and relatives. I feel that it's been ages since I had a get together like this. And let alone, how many years have I not balik kampung. So it was damn awesome.. I loved the whole adventure. I wish it lasted longer. So where do I begin? Perhaps a pictorial.

Day 1 - Barbeque

Day 2 - Korban

Very mischievous cow

They had a very rough time tryna catch this cow.

The moment when they invite us to takbir along.. And as we takbir, they sembelih.. That caught my heart. I know we're not supposed to cry but I cried. It was very emotional. Don't worry I didn't eat the meat anyway.

Trash incineration - Kampung style

Look at the moon and the surrounding circle of light idk whatever you call it. No effect, it's caught on camera.

FINALE - Back to Singapore

Sayaaaaang atok!

The amazing scenery. Just love it.

Dropped by Taman Indah the one which has Jusco megamart, for lunch

So we had lunch at A&W and I suggested it... It was major disappointment. Tak lazat langsung.

The only yummy part was the coke float. The trademark of A&W

Twister fries not even appealing.

I guess the next time I'm gonna balik kampung is only when Rayyan is all grown up with the ability and knowledge of walking and maybe some talking...
It's right what they say. You won't miss them till they're gone. I didn't cherish the times when my gramps and uncle were living under the same roof as us. I did not heed their advice. I kinda disliked their presence. I kept complaining on how they took up a room which led to the lack of space for my many siblings. But what I didn't do was appreciate they were there. And now I realized that it's been years since I last went there. Had spent quality time w nenek and atok back then when I was much younger. Now that I finally get to meet them again at kampung, it brings back old memories and how so much have changed. Now I'm back w a son and I'm married. And nenek and atok has become moyangs. It's kinda emotional when it comes to this. Now I'm back to reality. Where problems and stress never seem to go away. Kampung is the only place I feel free and safe. No matter how it lacks of modern civilization and Internet. It gave me the epiphany that without Internet life is much easier. No worries on social crap. Everything just seems right without the availability of Internet, computer, and perhaps form of communication. There's no need to care about friends or anyone else. Just me and my son and my family... That's enough. But it just lacks of one person - husband.

Hmmm I pray day and night for things to change and be better. No point stressing over it all the time when I know nothing will change. Just pray and stay patient and strong. Insyallah.

HALLOWEEN

2011-10-31T18:30:00.005+08:00

Hi there the weekend was plain cos we didn't had any plans to go out since we're cash tight. Hmm so today which is the exact Halloween date, I've decided to make up for fun. As a kitty cat!
How was your Halloween, everyone?
Anyway my nose part is pretty screwed up because I decided to follow exactly like the tutorial when I could actually shrink the size so yeap, a lil awkward there. I made the cat ears myself cos I can't afford to go Daiso just to buy one for an impromptu idea. And I've actually did a vlog but I changed my mind on publishing it cos husband finds it so hilarious. Sigh... T.T he's sucha meanie.

Ok Happy Halloween! \(^o^)/

SURPRISE

2011-10-27T18:20:00.002+08:00

So I guess there's no point keeping it a secret.... for long.
If you're my twitter follower, you might probably know already that Rayyan is getting a sibling! Haha
Yep. I can say that I'm pregnant again. Although I only tested twice and the recent one was positive..
See!

So the thing is this was tested on 20th Oct and Lynn was there with me when I tested this cos she bought for me the test kit since she wanted to pay for my cab fare but I told her to buy me the kit instead. Haha. And she was the first to congratulate me... Hmm the feeling was inexplainable. Cause honestly I was 50/50 on this. I thought about the consequences. But I got some assurance from husband since he's just so dedicated to have a second child right now. And he strongly wants a girl. Which I do too. And weird enough, somehow I'm hoping to get twin girls. However, the possibility is uncertain.

My first test done was at poly on the 5th of this month which turned out negative then I had an appointment for another test but I missed it cos if yall wanna know I have the laziest ass to go poly. Seriously. Hmm when I got negative I was kinda upset, a little.. Cos I was expecting for a positive. Despite the doubts, fears and worries on stuffs that are bound to occur. And also the usual nausea I was beginning to face everyday. Hmm and gladly enough, alhamdulillah here I am encountering my 2nd pregnancy as a fetus grows in my tummy once again.
Looking at the bright side, my hosp bills for checkups are free since I'm still under csc and the age difference between Ray and his coming sibling won't be too far... Like old people say, buku sekolah tak jauh. Hahaha it's in fact, true.

So now I say, before you try to even judge me again and try to kill me with financial bullshits and all, you jolly well think of it this way. A child is a gift from God. I am up for this challenge. Preferably twin girls...
HAHAHA whassup w me and twin girls ya allah sakitnya dua kali ganda... ish! But I was just picturing Rayyan being the big bro and his twin sisters will be like Mary Kate and Ashley......... Haha banyak berangan la aku. Shall go poly for a double confirmation soon. Very soon.

Congratulations, mummy's tayang you're gna be a big bro! mwah

CHILLIN'

2011-10-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

Hi yesterday we went to town just to chill.. It was a pretty impromptu idea, last minute.

Well thing was, husband and campmates have their off days these weekdays so they took the chance to go out even for a fact that we were all cashtight, just to spend the opportunity. If I'm not mistaken the plan was made in a group but resulted in only 2 of Yan's friends coming down. Hahaha. Chilled at Scape which was considerably quite deserted except for the people playing sports as weird as handball. The guys just can't stop critisizing them saying it's a useless game and all. Hmm... guys. Then as the guys went on with their convo, I tried to fix a meetup w Fifi since the mini family were at ION. So we finally got to meet again. Haha I always miss her so easily eventhough at times she can be superbly annoying to me but she's still the sweetest!

Ish that lucky babe got an instax as a gift from her future in-law and then we took a pic and she gave me to keep in my purse. How sweet I'm gonna cryyyy haha jkd. Hmmm... I had a good time.

Haha Imma fatty bom bom just like alfie. ONLY IN THIS PIC hehe

Ah yela part group shot je muka tu macam. Tsk

GIRLS WILL ALWAYS BE GIRLS

2011-10-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

So guess what?
The luvvy girls came over yesterday!

Hehehehehehe imagine my cheekiness. I savor every moment of it since I was a loner at home. Haha kidding! So bestfriend, Nadirah and Diyanah made my evening. First time meeting Diyanah and gosh, is she so pretty and tall. Not that the other two babies aren't pretty la. I was surrounded by pretty girls. Nyeahaha! They were so entertained by Ray........ and my expensive straightener. Haha! Damn shoulda snap pics of them straightening Snooki's hair. Her hair turned from bird nest ends to wow! Haha kk kidding again. But really her hair is pree spoilt but the ISO straightener does wonders. Just look at my dipdyed ends which instantly turns straight and fresh. Those ugly, bleached bitch ends are just devastating. Back to the story.

Basically we did what girls do. Talk and talk and talk. Bitched abit.... Abit only. Lol. And well yeah, camwhored just for the fun of it! Sigh... It's been long since Mairah and I went out together and spent time together. Like really just plainly she and I. But nvm she always have another bestfriend...... :X HAHAHA k shuddup dee.
Girls please come again someday perhaps a sleepover then we can have pillow fights and just be in undies. Hahahaha why not... I want more girls time pls!! I love girls. Mhmmmm yummz! Eek no I just love my girlfriends mwah mwah mwah xoxo

my lil sis is at the back don't get spooked!

CHUNKFEST

2011-10-17T18:43:00.057+08:00

The weekend was pretty engaging.

It was my first time attending Ben and Jerry's Chunkfest and to begin with, it was quite interesting. We went with Syam and Kiki and since they've been annual guests for 3 years now, they said it sucked and was boring compared to previous years. It was pree boring since we came by evening and the grass was all muddy at Marina Bay Promontory. So us with a pram, we had to stay put on the wood section while the B&J lovers went to explore the stalls. I thought of having my taste buds indulged in the exclusive flavour of B&J from Usa but it was kinda unworthy. A cup for 6$? You kidding me. My heart is only and only for Marble Slab I love you Marble Slab. But I did get to taste what the couple bought. One of em was super disgusting it was Spice Chocolate and it tasted of fish. I just had to spit it out. Eww. And the other one was acceptable. Err.. I forgot what it's called but something to do with chocolate too.

We then had a tedious walk all the way to Marina Square. Thumbs up to 3 weekends in a row at Marina Square! Hahaha. Since we hadn't eaten, we had our very first meal of the day at Ljs and then we roamed around... Entering the same shops we always do whenever we go Marina Square. Don't yall face that too? Hehe. For supper, we laid back at Starbucks with a cup of venti Chocolate chip frappe or something. I was bloated. At the end of the day we ditched a ride home as Ayah fetched us. Hehe the beauty of having a dedicated father in-law. Overall, I fancied the evening as Rayyan was very well behaved and enjoying the whole trip at town.
At night we went over to visit Dinie at Segar since he broke another arm. Had a long night as they chit chatted away and I was all the way yawning and tearing I was just too exhausted to participate in their convo. Hahaha I had a great weekend! <3

Guys and their phones

3 YEARS OF LOVE

2011-10-10T16:58:00.053+08:00

Today marks the day Yan and I first met in 2008. So if you do your maths, we have been 3 years in love! =)
And just to acknowledge, our marriage has reached 7 months. *claps*

We had actually celebrated our anni a lil advanced which was yesterday since army man has to train his ass off on weekdays. We had a simple yet great weekend. We just did some shopping... Husband treated me some tops and bottoms which he personally chose for me ^^ Saturday we headed to Bugis then Marina. Our signature trademark of eating Marble Slab everytime we go to Iluma. My cravings are fulfilled eventhough it increased my sore throat! And then yesterday Husband surprised me by bringing me to the place we went on our 1st monthsary. Yeahhhhh way back to our 1st month together. Lemme tell you this.... The first month we went through together was tough! Well it was afterall a new beginning. We had our differences which we hadn't settled on. Yet we pulled it through together. And I'm proud of us for this. Unfortunately my charger decided to put up a sucky attitude yet again so it didn't wanna charge my battery. Which led to no camwhoring moments. Which was upsetting. I was planning to snap a photo of a repitition or whatever you shall call it... Of us back then on 10th Nov 2008. I rummaged through my photobucket and I can't seem to find it! Sigh. But again, I was a sad kitty when we didn't get to make the same shot yesterday since we only had our phone cameras and the lighting and everything... was just bad.

Afterwards we went to Vivo, and did some shopping. It may seem boring... Maybe it was. But I enjoyed it. The time spent with Husband is just wondrous. I hope we get to do it often. And when I say often, meaning every weekend cos time is precious but money is scarce. Oh well...

To top it all off, I'd like to publicly wish Husband a Happy 3rd relationship Anniversary. We never thought we'd go this far... But I guess it's fate. And I love Soffian so much no matter how annoying and hurtful he is most of the time but he never fail to make me smile and laugh and cry all at the same time. I love you.

SICK

2011-10-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

I have been super feverish throughout this whole week and it sucks :(
Currently my left ear is half deaf and I'm having terrible migraine and my throat hurts super bad.... I could just cry.

I've already drowned my tummy with cooling water...air badak, air kaki tiga. Okay maybe it's abit better now I just hope I fully recover by tmr morning or else how am I gonna have the energy to go husband's place tmr! :(
Anyway tmr is the 7th. Ray turns 3 months and I'll be getting my pay I guess by midnight. Pathetic thing is my pay......sigh. Just plain pathetic. I'm hoping husband gets his pay by tmr night, maybe? We are gonna celebrate our 3rd anni in advanced this weekend ^^

Sigh.... I wanna take car license asap. I keep delaying it. Not that I don't want to. Just tryna figure out when's the best time. Hope that yall have a splendid weekend! Can't wait to meet husband tmr we're gonna go shopping on Saturday hehehe. Dengan gaji aku yg cukup-cukup buat beli movie tickets tapi tak cukup untuk beli popcorn. Haha seumpamanya la.

WAKE UP PEOPLE SEPTEMBER IS OVER

2011-10-01T01:45:00.001+08:00

Husband's asleep beside me. We planned to train our maple chars along w Zaki but sigh... my lappy got rejected at maple gateway and I donch know why so nevermind la I take this time to blog. First of all congratulations to my favourite mummy gf Shahfini who is celebrating her 3rd anniversary with Hirman. 9 more days it will be my turn with Yan. 6 more days Rayyan turns 3 months. How time flies... Ohya if I'm not wrong Nabeel turns 3 months today? Yay to mummy Lyna =) Okay so main thing is October is filled with many excitements cos there are many people I know having birthdays and all. So many stuff going on. So lemme share a few random memorandums.

This boy Haidar is a very sweet boy and I miss him. Sigh... I ever mentioned before that I cried cos I missed him when I was pregnant. I can recall him kissing and rubbing my baby bump. His mischief, going around and grabbing all my stuff cos he's just so curious. Hmm... Haidar, where are you?? Come meet baby Hayder k.

This one is Fidah, my best raving partner. Lol I don't mean rave dance but rave rant. She's a mother of two and I'm proud of her cos hell yeah she's strong! The first and only time we've met each other was when I came to visit her when she gave birth to Maya. Eventhough we started off as tweethears, I feel that we are kinda close. Yeah I mean it. Like bestfriend close. Cos we never fail to contact each other let it be whatsapp or twitter. She listens to my problems the best! *winks* Seriously wanna meet her again soon since we live quite near. Insya'allah if time permits.

This guy ah, very handsome one. Charming summore. He sound me steady at Uss but I told him "can't you see I'm preggy I got hubby so sorry" Hahahaha k shuddup la. Okay I chose this picture cos I miss Uss. I don't mean to brag that I've went there twice but what's the point if I didn't get to ride the coasters? Tell me about it. Hmmm but the experience was great. I am looking forward to December cos husband kinda promise we can go again on December cos there's gonna be new roller coaster, Transformers. So people, want to go uss? Go December k. That's if it's true about the new ride thing.

So I decided, heck care with my face la I know it's pathetic but I want yall to focus on Rayyan upon birth. Cute kan? Tiuttttt sekali. Mummy likey. It was a heartwarming moment for me. See how white and small he is. I will never forget the moment I gave birth to him. Things have been going smooth with handling Ray and he's getting even more cheekier. Waiting to hear his first laughter! I'm thinking... and hoping. I wish that I could pour all my love for him. Just him. Apart from my husband. I really love Rayyan alot and he means the world to me. When all else seems like shit, be it my personal or social life, I think of him and I forget about giving up. He's my inspiration. He's just the best thing that happened to me. Hope husband doesn't get jealous that I say this but no la of course I love husband also cos he is the best guy I could ever have in my life despite his nonsense and mulut celupar mintak kene jahit. Hehe love these two boys in my life till eternity.

I like your smile I like your vibe I like your style.. But that's not why I love you.
Hehe k I know it's not really suitable to dedicate to a baby but hey, my baby's got swag too you all tahu apa. hahahahaha jkd!

Okay now.... Doesn't mean I don't blog about you I don't think of you. These are the random people on my mind tonight. Yet I still think of my lovable Shahfini. And Syamickey who finds me huggable. Ummairah Snooki I don't know where you've been and I miss you you're still my only bestfriend but sometimes I feel that I'm not your bestfriend but it's okay.. I'm happy as long as you're happy. Myra I also miss you.
And...... another girl I think of at times like this is none other than my minah kecyk, Yanna. She might be a minah but I love her. Idk what happen to her now but hope you're doing good, okay. You were there to share my excitement when I was pregnant in my earlier stages and you were all excited to meet my baby but till now you mia. But it's okay.. Alahai my post today like dedication post aready. Hehe goodnight happy weekend!

WORK YUR ASS

2011-09-30T22:08:00.007+08:00

Shagged faces

Thursday was my 3rd day of work, it was hectic. Little did I know Cotton On is having 50% sales till Sunday but as usual they make it look too good to be true and I get more than 5 questions asked whether this or that item is on sale or not.

Upon coming in 4 minutes late cos I was drifted away while chilling w Fifi who was also working at the same shift but Bugis outlet, and I just had to go to the loo first, the clothes on the whatever you call it uh the display rack or promotion table or something were everywhere! I also dk what the manager do la. And as usual, I cover the whole floor and lemme tell you I had to fold the clothes gazillion times and they just get messed up again. Oh no surprise I guess people get crazed over sales. The rack up during closing was super pressurizing I swear I felt like breaking down and cry only to see my manager finally helping with the rest. At the end of the day, I was flat on the bed and Friday which is today my body was at 2% energy level despite sleeping for more than 8 hours. Overslept I guess? Or perhaps this week was just a really bad week for me.
But no worries cos October is finally here and October babies are turning a year older this month. One of em is my mummy =)

LIKE MUMMY LIKE BABY

2011-09-29T02:36:00.004+08:00

Hi most of my girls in twitter say that Ray has my smile... Cos I twitpic our pic when I was at lot 1 ytd. Hehe

Ytd husband and campmates had a night out so we decided to hangout awhile at lot 1 and I brought Ray along for a breather. Hahaha baby also wants to jalan-jalan. And Fifi also came down to meet Man. Sadly Syamickey neh come down haiz weak ah lu b.

I enjoyed spending time with husband for the past two days. Tuesday he also had a night out but got to book in the next day. It's okay.... Wait for you to ord oh then we can have the time of our lives like we used to. Enjoy like there's no tmr and stuff. I love you.

Haiz working later today. Worked for only twice and this will be my 3rd time and I already feddup. Haha pathetic.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NENEK

2011-09-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

It's my family's tradition to celebrate our relatives' birthdays. I mean, yeah most people do but for us, we HAVE to do it. It's not a must, but a want. Just to make that someone have a special day on their birthday.

So this September, it's my granny's birthmonth. I know it's shameful of me not to know the exact date. Hahaha. But we had a great time. Amidst all the tragedy going on recently, I'm thankful it's all over and we did get to make our granny happy. Last Saturday, we surprised her with Secret Recipe's cheesecake and a whole table of delicacies. Happy to see my nenek smile =)

Her wonderful grandchildren :) From my family, that is.

The gifts of love

And I guess the only gift I could present her with is the advanced birthday present of a great grandson :')

VIVO

2011-09-22T23:30:00.032+08:00

Hi today we went to vivo cause I wanted to spend my co gift card.
K I know I know... why go vivo's co? Cos some kpo makcik nak tag along pasal kalau tak Syamsiah and I only wanted to go to Lot 1's. HAHAHA k sorry tayang I was just kidding =))

So Syamsiah brought Sara tiuty and Fifi brought Alfie baby. And lemme tell you co is kinda stingy, only giving 100$ for us to spend on clothes for at most 3 months? I can't even buy 2 pairs of jeans! Sigh but well with staff discount I got a pair of jeans, a top, a romper and a pencil skirt! Plus a headband and necklace... just to finish the total amout. I.need.more.jeans. Cause eventually, I don't own jeans. Okay actually I do, like those nice ripped jeans but I can't fit in anymore. Story of my life, sigh...

Anyway we had dinner at ljs, as usual. Say vivo, eat ljs. Hehe *peace* And the experience sucks cause it's the first time ever I lost my appetite because......the rice was not cooked properly. And when I went to redeem a new set, the rice was still disgusting. Like pulut. Or lontong. Or whatever you can think of. I ended up just eating the cajun chicken which isn't even that grilled. Thumbs down for ljs.
But apart from all those I'm glad I had fun with my girls. They complete me. Hehehe *cheeky*
Can't wait for err.... uss outing perhaps? Let's!

SANDTOSA

2011-09-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

It's been ages since my feet are dipped in sand and sea.

So last Friday night, we went streaking in the park. Skinny dipping in the dark...

Hahaha just kidding. We didn't do those. But hell yeah I've gotta tell you I enjoyed it! As usual, the beaming sun kissed our skin. The 3 of us girls, Syamsiah, Fifi and I, we planned not to play in the water. So we decided to do what girls do best, camwhore! The guys had their own fun time playing in the water and bury one another in the sand. Let's just allow the pictures do the talking =)

The dudes having fun with sand. Haha!

Beach couples

After washing up, we headed to Vivo for the dudes to meet the rest. Hahaha take note of these faces. Possibly future saviors of our nation *winks*

And I can't deny, I had super duper fun with my girls. ♥

FIRST DAY OF WORK

2011-09-14T15:56:00.003+08:00

Working. I doubt every adult loves it. It's just a matter of needing to work... Not wanting. I can bet that everyone would love to go back to school. Don't you think so?

So yesterday was my very first day of work after a year of unemployment. It was not bad, quite fun. Thing about sales is that you have to stand for hours whether you like it or not. Wonder how full timers cope with that. My job was pree simple. Folding clothes... Racking up. The usuals. And the friends I made, they were nice. Only met two girls so far and did closing with this girl who happens to have the same name as my bestfriend. Hehe. Pathetic thing was that my working slot for the week is only yesterday. How sad....
On the other hand, Syamsiah also had her first day of work but in another outlet. I'm thankful enough eventhough I'm posted quite far atleast the store's small and I only had to deal with ladies' apparels. Hehehe. But I would have to say, how I wish I could work under kids section!!

K so we have a triple date plan this Friday to Sentosa I hope it goes well cos believe me, I've been wanting to go Sentosa for so long since I was pregnant! Time for dipping my feet in sand and sea! Mmmmm....

FAMILY BONDING

2011-09-11T18:52:00.047+08:00

2 weeks of Raya and I finally get the chance to go raya with my parents and siblings yesterday. I regret not having to visit my relatives, gramps... Sigh. Insya'allah next year okay. Insya'allah next year I buy my own car! *cross fingers*

So my family went pink! =) favourite colour. If yall don't already know..
It was fun. Although I was a lil bit moody due to some reasons one of which is that my lil sis dropped my iphone and my screen protector got retardedly scratched. Fml. We went to a total of 3 houses only cos we left in the late afternoon and they were only friends of my parents. Plus, I love the fact that I did not perspire like fuck like all the other days. Hahaha!
Easy said, it was worthwhile.

love this

SHEESHA

2011-09-10T16:44:00.054+08:00

Hi today marks the day of my 6th month of marriage with Husband.❤

So it's been ages since Yan and I both watch movies together. We rarely do. And as a last minute plan, we headed off to Iluma last night (TGIF!) to catch Bad Teacher with the other couple, Syamsiah and Zaki. Yan and I arrived late cos somebody was too tired that he went the wrong way -.- hehehe then before going into the cinema we bought what we craved for... marble slab ice cream! The usual. But this time, rocher + peanut butter ice cream with snickers and nutella. Haiz heavenly! *drools* Sesiapa belum try, sila try! And eventually we entered the cinema during this boobies scene. LOL what a joke. And basically it was about this teacher eagerly wanting a boob job and stuff. Yall should watch it if you haven't! M18 ehhh...

The movie ended towards midnight and we don't know where else to go so I thought.... since its bugis why not go sheesha cos it's been almost or more than a year I have not smoked sheesha. Hehe and anyway Syamsiah gave the idea first. If I'm not wrong. It so happens to be that the dudes' friends were there too so we went to this place, Bazuka Cafe. Got a raspberry sheesha, a jug of cranberry vodka (I know I broke one of my not-to-do promises but it was not drink to get drunk *winks*)... Passed time. Kinda dull session but it's alright. After that Syam and Yayan went off while husband and I went to grab a quick late night beverage at Mcafe. Dbl choc frappe, caramel frappe, and two choc melts. I know I've been wanting it so badly but now I'm already bored of it.

On top of it all, I urged Yan to quickly ride home because my tummy couldn't take it. It was just grumbling like hell. What not? Green tea, ice cream, frappe, sheesha, choc melts, vodka, and mi goreng earlier on. HAHAHA all like rojak already in my tummy. Overall, I did have fun. Thanks for the day guys! And special thanks to husband for the random impulse/impromptu outing. Dah lama tak keluar enjoy kita berdua je. ❤

HAPPY 2MTHS AYYAN

2011-09-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to Rayyan, happy birthday to you!

Hehehe k no la actually it's only his 2 months birthday but still! I wanna make it a point to commemorate every month of his birthday to record his developments.... How big he has grown from time to time. Then when he grows up atleast he gets to see these special moments. Don't forget! I've already planned for his 1 year birthday party! Hehehe perhaps at a chalet or by the beach. Maybe RWS?? Yayyyyyy sounds fun! Haha

So as you can see his granny bought a mini birthday cake for the mini yan and we somehow had a lil celebration. When I blew the candles I wished for him to grow up to be a good boy and anak yg soleh. Insya'allah.

FIRST LADIES.

2011-09-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

Hi I had a girls raya outing yesterday and it was fun! After like..... 2(?) years of separation we're finally reunited. Miss those times together back in Dunearn.

So we started off at Fika's place and since the girls wanted to meet Ray, I brought him along. Then to Efa's, Allie's, mine, Lyana and Sabby respectively. I'm glad two chinese gfs of ours joined along wearing their baju kurung as well, they look damn gorgeous! Fayme my bestie and Ci Wen baby. The whole thing was quite tiring but I should say that Ray likes his aunties. Hehehe except for some parts where he couldn't take the heat and starts to fidget and uwekwek... lol k uwekwek sounds like duck T.T

K anyway it's a really memorable outing and ohya we all got cute hari raya letters from Ci Wen haiz why she damn sweet one! She wrote us in malay! Shall scan and post it or something. Hehe but it's in my twitpic though. Yall go see! I am pretty glad that my girls find me a much better, changed person after going through this having a child experience. I really don't wish to be the old me. I've looked different, maybe not better or prettier but it's okay. And I behave much differently now. That's what I love about me. Oh! Rayyan has turned 2 months today. I love you tiuty tayang.

personal fav (from efa's cam)

TAKBIR BERKUMANDANG

2011-09-06T00:52:00.001+08:00

Right now it's 1237hrs and I still take the time, not to sleep, but edit some pics and now updating my blog for yall to read ^^ Anyway tmr Ray turns 2 months! yayyyyz

Okay so last Sunday, I went for my so called 2nd raya outing. Hahahaha! My mini family goes pink! After years of persuading Yan to wear pink, he finally agrees and he did not regret it in fact he loves wearing pink kurung! Hehe sachok peeee sachok. Haha! K anyway, we went to a couple of houses and Ray wasn't in a pretty good mood that day so kinda had a bit of tough time handling him. And that day I wore my favourite outfit and yes I have to emphasize this because I really love it eventhough it's nothing special. Hehe n.n\/

Thankfully ayah managed to borrow a colleague's van for us to roam around. Phew! I can't stand taking public transport. As usual, the baby gets multiple times more than the mummy usually gets. Pft! But I'm happy lah. Rezeki Rayyan kan.. Siapa kata ada baby abeh tkde duit tkle tanggung? Baby akan sentiasa dapat rezeki dari mana-mana dan apa-apa cara pun. Why would God make you pregnant, give you a baby, if he won't wanna guide you? Think!

Ohya that day I went for a lil shopping at Jp's Kiddy Palace to buy some stuffs for Ray including some toys. Good thing is he has really good grip now and he is able to hold onto his toys for a few seconds, shaking it unknowingly and then lets go. Hehe my son is really developing well and quickly and I'm so happy about it... Oh ya! He has started to smile more! Not the smile in his sleep thingy, but smiling when we tease him! Hehehe and seriously he has long long eyelashes unlike me nor Yan. Even longer than mine :( Ray nak compete lashes dengan mummy, eh? And also, he's started to babytalk even more and he responds when babytalked to. Cannot wait for his 2 months birthday, hope that he'll start to laugh... Hehe soon I hope *fingers crossed*

I lup chu my baby

BERJABAT TANGAN

2011-09-04T00:49:00.006+08:00

Hi it's a Sunday nowzzz

Came back quite late from jalan raya ytd. Rayyan's green packets are proven multiple times more than what I usually get! Hahaha lucky baby. It was damn tiring but thankfully we drove from house to house by van. And the best part was gg to Kak elly's open house cos her house is damn gorgeous I just love the royal gold wallpaper and her sofas. Hehe k anyway that's all I need to sleep super tired now!

Ohya Ray's hepatitis B injection went well he only cried for awhile and he's gained weight and height! Baby ray now weighs 4.5kg. Yayyy awsum ^^

SYAWAL 11

2011-09-02T23:37:00.003+08:00

This year's Raya really isn't the same. Unlike my previous years, I didn't go out raya on 2nd day onwards. Which was kinda disappointing but I guess I'm just kinda lazy, tired and not really in the mood. But anyway next week my sec sch gfs asked me to join them for raya outing :) this will be the first ever time I go jalan raya with my own friends. Hehe k I know I'm kinda deprived but it's okay.

Hope y'all had a wonderful syawal so far. Shall spend the most of the time I have now while husband's still with me. Tmr shall go to the polyclinic for Rayyan's appointment. Goodnight xx

SALAM AIDILFITRI

2011-08-31T15:00:00.002+08:00

A'kum.. Diyanah di sini ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan maaf zahir dan batin kepada semua orang yg pernah Diyanah tersinggung hati, terkasar bahasa, terbitch, termaki, termarah dan sebagainya lah. Hope yall forgive me ok. Let it be friends or enemies. I'm so sorry I love you guys <3 *salam & hugs*

Ok hi it's the 2nd day of Raya and as I've always emphasized this yr raya ain't the same. Nothing at all. Usually today I'd be out with my family berjalan raya... Cos mum and dad always take a whole week of leave from work. Right now I'm at bp home =) Husband's sleeping -.- I bet he's just too shagged from the whole Brunei training experience then jalan raya ytd was like never before cos we took public transport. Haha. Yesterday wasn't very much interesting but atleast it was a new wonderful experience. Walaupun aku masih tk biasa with the whole thing, I'm still thankful my husband and son are by my side. I admit I do really miss going out w my parents and siblings. Cos obviously I only spent 17 years of raya with them.. I did cry. I hope mum and dad knows that no matter what, I do still love them and I miss them and all these are sacrifices we have to make and fate to accept. Currently my family are off to Jb to meet my neneks and atoks there, sigh I feel bad for not being able to join. One reason is cos Ray belum buat passport.
But I guess nothing much to share about ytd.. Just visiting relatives.... and Ray wore baju kurung alahai cute giler mintak kene gigit! Hehe

Hope yall had a splendid raya ytd and for the rest of the raya :) Insya'allah if I get to go raya with my friends and besties definitely we need apologizing session and hugging and kissing and perhaps crying? haha enjoy the raya songs and raya kuihs while they last! ❤

CAMAT ALI LAYE IN ADVANCED

2011-08-28T01:01:00.001+08:00

Bertukar senyuman dan salam

Ziarah-menziarahi

Tutur dan kata yang sopan

Saling memaafi

Hi everyone. Anak bulan hampir kelihatan. Hari Selasa hari raya! =)
So I'm up this late past midnight gonna leave a post cos I know I might not have the chance to blog after today onwards. Husband's coming home in less than 48 hours I can't wait! Surprise him with my new hair.. Ok it's not really something new cos it's just straight highlighted hair and the usual colour everytime I highlight. Sigh... I really wanted red highlights or ash grey but sadly snip ave sucks. Anyway yesterday Myra came over and I helped her bleach and highlight red streaks, they were quite ok but the colour didn't really come out. Kinda.. And I did make up for her! Didn't manage to snap a pic but I swear she look damn pretty esp that I love her natural curly lashes!!

So yeap my raya prep is aaaalmost done. Almost. I have no idea how to style my hair on raya though :( I was thinking of manicure but like lazy leh.. Maybe I'll just paint nails myself. Hmm k being a girl, a female, Raya is the time where I want to do so many things to myself. Memang lah time raya je nak sibuk2 buat ni semua buat rambut lah apelah abeh kenapa? Tk boleh? Nampaksah org nk lawakan diri on this special ocassion, kan? Unfortunately this year is kinda suckish cos my hair turned out not the way I wanted and I didn't get the wedges I longed for, got heels instead. I wonder how I'm gna survive in heels esp carrying Ray and all. Woah! Ok enough of Raya rantings.
Right now on CNA is the Presidential Election. I'm kinda not ready for a new president. But it's not really a biggie for me. Just that it's not gonna be the same. Hoping for the best!

Really no idea how this year's Raya gonna turn out. I pray that it'll be prodigious. With a new member in the club. *winks*
So anyway when I was pregnant I was obsessed with this baby pic and I made it my wallpaper in laptop and phone.. And see how adorable my baby boy turned out to be. The eyes, the londeh cheeks, the lips, the chin awwww

Macam mana aku tak geram??! n_________n

NEW LOOK

2011-08-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

Ok so I kinda sound like...... krik krik.
But whatever.... And anyway it was all impromptu I feel like doing another one cos I look so zzz esp with my flat hair it makes my face look fatter! :((((
Lesson learnt: Never go to Snip Avenue ever again
And for the last time omg I look horrible and disastrous idky my friends in twitter say i look good T.T

goodnight rayyan

THE NIGHT IS YOUNG

2011-08-24T01:51:00.001+08:00

It's been idk how long since I last vlogged but I was so bored and in the mood for an impulse vlogging!
I shall watch Nikita series till I fall asleep. Greatnight xoxx

WHO AM I?

2011-08-23T19:33:00.001+08:00

Today is a rather empty day. Or it probably is much more emptier than last night. Idk why last night I couldn't sleep I was so emotional and depressed for no apparent reason. Or maybe deep inside I do know the reason, I just didn't wanna think negative. So I just assumed that I was plain exhausted. Physically and emotionally... What's new?

So the only interesting fact about today is that Rayyan smiled twice when I played with his adorable chin. That made my day a lil brighter. And when he's just awake and fidgeting away like as if he wants to kick and run and box around, I'd babytalk to him and he'd babytalk back. I get super excited everytime! I did capture a vid of him talking his baby language but I will not post it today.
I also wanted to do my hair but maybe tmr. I've fixed my mind I'm not gonna go for extensions but I'm gonna rebond and highlight instead. I think that extensions are most probably not worth it...

HAPPY 1M2W BBYBOY

2011-08-22T21:53:00.003+08:00

My Sunday was spent as you guess it.. bazaar Geylang yet again. Hahaha I'm no minah Geylang la I just have alotta stuffs to buy.

So ytd we sent Ray to his moyang first at Kallang before we proceed to bazaar for buka. I was so eager to buy a kurung for Ray and I went to so many shops but ended up not buying cos they were all too big like even size 0 is too big. Yeah I'd get it altered but thinking back, next year he won't be able to wear it again anyway. BUT....... I just might buy it on impulse the next time I go again cos I have yet to buy summore stuffs muahahaha! Well I did spend my bucks on his stuffs like socks and pants and I overspent. Oops! *slaps head* Got my rantai and a brooch for hubby wubby. Dad got me a gelang. Ok itu aja. Hehe. The climax of ytd was... *drum rolls*.... I almost LOST MY PHONE. Yes. In the middle of bazaar Geylang can y'all believe it? So I was happily shopping and I have this habit of just holding my phone in hand cos I didn't brought a bag. So as I walked along w my parents, I noticed that my phone was missing. I asked mum cos I thought I gave it to her. She denied and I thought she was kidding until she gave a serious face. So I kanchiong alr I went back to the shops that I went previously, crashing past the crowd likka boss. I went to the prev shop A, I didn't ask. I just looked around. I was confident I didn't leave it there. So I went to the 2nd prev shop B and asked around. No hope. Went back to shop A and saw my dad there. See my dad is a pro. Ask Mairah cause the last time we were in Bintan, she misplaced her purse at the resort's shop and dad retrieved it cos he has his way. Eventhough we asked the shopkeepers if they'd seen it and they denied. So yep, I went to shop A and the auntie step mcm "Ohhhh the phone your one ah why neh say" WTF she didn't wna admit she found my phone when my dad asked until I came. So what happened was due to my carelessness. As I pay, I place my phone somewhere close, get some cash from my purse and I ttly forgot abt my precious phone. So pls let this be a lesson to yall. I am so thankful I got it back! Syukur alhamdulillah...

The rest of the day wasn't very interesting, just normal ;) But anyway I've been thinking of making a video with baby Ray! Should I? lmk! And I also wanna capture every moment I have a baby convo with him. Yes! He's responsive now with his baby language and when I babytalk to him he'd babytalk back I swear it's damn hilariously cute. And oh yes, Ray and I are done with our 44days confinement yayyyy! Time to see the playfulness emerge out of him. Oh yeah I have yet to do my hair and yes I miss my husband totally. Sigh wonder what he's doing right there right now... if he's thinking of me and ray.... I will see you again at the place I see you last. Changi Airport! :D

checkout my momma arm woah hahaha

Mummy luv this sunshine xx

SATURDAY

2011-08-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

hatsune miku matryoshka

Mushi mushi!
Hehe I woke up early morning today just to make up for my sis! She was going to a cosplay convention at Suntec and she played this anime character who has long turquoise hair which was gonna be her wig so I did turquoise makeup for her. Well for your info my sis kecik-kecik suka tengok Teletubbies and they are afterall a Japanese production so I guess from there she got hooked up in Anime and stuff. She even draws Anime!

So anyway Hi it's a Saturday =) And I recalled having my Standard Saturdays way back then. Hehe. Every Saturday was a must to go out.

Well today is as usual a stay home weekend for me. Wanted to go bazaar Geylang as I have stuffs to buy, still. But dad ain't in a good mood since ytd so whatever. Mum said we'll just go tmr. Hopefully. Anyway it's only left like 9 days till Husband is finally home. But seems like still a long way to go though. Wonder how he's doing. Raya preparations for me ain't quite complete. What about you guys? Still thinking if I should buy baju kurung for Ray. That is if size 0 is still available. Oh by the way, by day Ray is starting to resemble me even more! Hehe. Many of my tweethearts agree. Mum too. She said that Ray looks just like me when I was a baby. Aww like mother like son wahahaha! Have a good evening yall =)

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY HUSBAND

2011-08-19T21:47:00.025+08:00

8 days apart, no word from you.

But it's okay cause we'll both pull through.

10 days to go, I'll just wait and say

That I love you so much and a Happy Birthday!

Today, as you can see, my husband turns 20! =) So happy for him. We both met when he was only 17. Now 3 years have passed.

Right now he's still in Brunei. Probably in the jungle. I can't really remember but Husband was really excited back then when he kept telling me the days he would be in Mount Biang or when he's having Mission Buaya. So I guess right now he's in the jungle perhaps mission buaya? Haha lantak je aku. But anyways, I just hope that he has an extraodinary memorable birthday since this year it's a whole new experience. No surprises or birthday cake from me unlike the past 2 years :p
Sad thing is I can't even wish him by mouth cause his phone is turned off but I did leave him a message and he probably won't read it anyway. Haha but it's okay. Just praying hard he's doing well there, always safe and healthy. Wifey very worried yaknow, hubby!

Anyway I love how some people always make my day just by saying some nice things in my formspring. Yall really turned my mood around, turned my frown upside down. And I'm thankful for that. Lately my thoughts were abit disturbed by someone who find that I can't manage to take care of my son. Like what they're tryna say is that I'm a bad mummy. But whatever, I know I ain't cause yall only know how to assume and bother to mind my business which I have no idea why even. One thing for you to know. I am blessed to have a wonderful, adorable and handsome son. But I was fated to have anak pelalak. And if you have no idea how tough it is to tolerate a pelalak, don't bother tryna tell me off. I may not be a perfect mother. I may never be. But atleast I am doing my responsibilities as a mother. Some mothers may be blessed with an easy to handle baby. I don't mind. Insya'allah when Rayyan grows up he won't give me many problems. That's what old people say, kalau time kecik-kecik banyak nangis dah besar senang nak jaga. Something like that.
So as to update yall, Rayyan is doing okay. And from pictures in twitter(if you follow me) that I randomly post at times, yall can see that he dah semangat. We're still in our confinement. Perhaps a few more days till we're finally done with our 44 days =) Rayyan is pretty responsive now. I should actually snap a video of him with his mini baby languages! Hehe. And my 98237241 attempts to take a photo of him when he's smiling is a total fail. Sigh.. Nevermind the time will come. And my dream is big. For his first word to be "Allah"... ^^

WELCOME BABYGIRL

2011-08-17T14:27:00.001+08:00

Yesterday at 12.05(?)am, Maya Nur Hayfa was finally born =)

Got the news from Fifi since she was up damn early and she gave me 31 MISSED CALLS can yall believe it? I am the type who can never wake up early especially that it's hard for me to sleep at night. Insomnia I guess. We had a job interview after a stupid weird cheated attempt two days back when I went to an agency with Efa. NEVER TRUST AGENCIES. Sigh... It was only 3 days back that I was e-mailing my resume to so many employers. And I got so many calls for interviews, many of them were interesting but I had to pass the golden opportunities. Trust me, I can't go out that easy cos Ray's at home with just my maid and bibik has alot of other jobs to tend to. As for yesterday, dad took the time to come back after an appointment in the morning so I got the chance to leave by noon for the interview and syukur alhamdulillah Fifi and I got it! Want to know what job? Formspring me! Haha action eh. So anyway I was supposed to join in Fika's bday celebration but dad was hurrying me to come home. I kept telling him I was on the way but in the end I delayed even more just to visit dearest Fidah at Sgh. Sweet tak? Hehe. But sorry Fika! Hope you had a wonderful 18th birthday! ❤
Didn't have much cash on us so we just got Fidah "A new little princess" balloon. Hope it's meaningful enough for her. Lol I was expecting balloons when I gave birth but I didn't get :( But it's okay atleast I got presents :D Enough of that. First of all we told Fidah we were on the way. Which we were. And we decided to eat first at the kopitiam at sgh, well no both of us ain't fasting. Then we decided to lie to Fidah that we had to go home last minute. Lol padahal ngah rounding hospital carik barang nak belikan. Abeh so limited! We finally went up, searched for her ward and tadaaaa surprise!! ^^

To be honest readers, its our first time meeting. Haha! And we also felt awkward when her other friends came. But whatever it is, it was fun hanging out till late with her at the hospital. Janji makbapak nak balik kul 3, kul 9 baru sampai -.-
Maya on the other hand, was very lovely. When I held her in my arms, I recalled the time I just gave birth to Ray. And from the side, her facial features looks just like Ray's! She's a princess! Miaa was also very adorable especially how playful she was and when she sulked when she see her granny attending to her baby sis! Hehe why so cute oneeee. I'm very glad that everything's good now for Fidah. Thank god she had a safe and quick delivery. Our nightmare moments are over! Now all of us can celebrate Raya with our new happy families. Hope Fidah has a good rest at home and recover soon. God bless, everyone xoxox

Congratulations Nurul Afidah =)

*More photos will be in Fifi's fb*

3 DAYS DOWN 15 DAYS TO GO

2011-08-14T16:35:00.000+08:00

It's a Sunday. A bloody Sunday.

Usually it's spent with Husband my tayang tayang but as ya'll know it, he's in Brunei. Sigh y u no buy Brunei prepaid card!! So today is another stay home weekend. Don't know whether my family will be going out this evening. Yesterday was kinda interesting. It was a scary movie marathon. Hehe it's like the whole day we were watching ghost movies. Ok.
So anyway I'm hoping I could meet up with my girls this week since I also wanna get my hair done. And I need to have another trip to bazaar geylang, I want to buy the rantai tingkat! Hehehe k idky I must buy rantai tingkat every year -.- but yeah I just love them. Plus, that day we went and I checked the smallest baby kurung.. Sigh still too big. Nenek said why not just get it altered. Hmm perhaps I will buy one piece. Just for the first day? Yep.
Tmr Fidah is getting induced. Just keeping her in my prayers hopefully everything will go well. Then I can drop by and visit her at SGH as well. This time round, I will try to go out with Ray by myself. Idky I'm kinda nervous abt it. Maybe because I'm lacking the confidence. Not because of shame or embarassment ok. Just imagine Ray suddenly crying then I kanchiong in the train? Lol. It'll be so awkward. Brrr... touch wood

and a little peek into my mak-mak times. hehe

A SERIES OF EVENTS

2011-08-13T19:16:00.005+08:00

Hi so what happened?

National Day was spent hanging out w Husband's sec schmates in Woodlands. Break our fast at Botak Jones smwhere near cwp and then we chilled till late. It was kinda disappointing having to miss the fireworks at Marina but it's okay. Thr's always a next time. Besides, I've already spent the past 2 years watching fireworks with Husband for so many events. Be it New year or National day. But anyways, Happy (belated) Birthday Singapore! & a happy 16th birthday to adek Sharhan too. He shares the same birthday as Sg. =)

The next day was of course....... my 5th wedding monthsary! Ok it's nothing to celebrate about but well, atleast just to acknowledge the special date. And counting our relationship, we are 2 years and 10 months together already. Syukur alhamdulillah. 2 more months and its 3 years of love. We went out that evening to Bugis cos I wanted to buy the wedges I so longed for but ended up buying heels but of the same design instead. It's for raya! So sexcited! Planned on doing hair extension after that at Fareast but it was kinda late already so we decided to indulge in Marble Slab at Iluma. It marks the place where Yan first booked out after 3 weeks confinement when he just got enlisted. His first pay was spent treating me to that marvelous yummy ice cream. This time round we bought a pint and it was awesome! Choc swiss and rocher flavor ice cream. Mixed with nutella and snickers. It's heavenly! I bet Husband's craving for it now in Brunei. Hehe. That was it. The day of separation was just a day away. So we had to spend the most we could with each other before 18days of missing. Rayyan just stayed home w his nenek and atuk since mummy and ayah naik bike vroom vroom~ ;)

11th. Counting down the hours till Husband departs. The only time left Yan could spend with his son and wife at home. Spent the last iftar together then we got ready to go to the airport. We left at 11. The long road to Changi Airport in the lorry, one particular song totally makes me think of him all the time eversince. Dev's Dancing in the dark. Lol! It was hilarious yet sweet. He would dance to the tune. Rave, actually. As a sarcasm towards this one guy. Ahhh it's an inside joke yall won't geddit! Hehe. Upon our arrival at Terminal 2, we met up with the rest. Sad thing was, Husband didn't really used the last few minutes of the time he had to spend with me but with his friends instead. Well that's what I felt. But it's okay. Atleast I got to hug and kiss and hug and hug and kiss and kiss like countless of times before he finally stepped into the departure hall. Sigh.. That moment, I felt like tearing. But I was strong. Didn't wanna get too worked up about it. All I could do was pray for his safety and health. For theirs. Insya'allah they will come home safely and in good condition! We won't want our nation heroes to celebrate Raya with a fever or something, right? So that was it. It wasn't goodbye. It's merely farewell. I kinda regret not bringing Rayyan along but it was late at night and he was already asleep. So yep. Left with this empty feeling in my heart. Well what can I say? Husband completes me.

The last of him was his text message when he was already in the plane at like, 3am. Just hope he has fun - the tough way. Farewell, my lover❤

CELEBRATIONS

2011-08-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

Sigh I think I got fatter and I look ugly in photos. Sigh sigh sigh..

Anyway Hi =) Today is the eve of National Day. Tmr is also my brother-in-law, Sharhan's, birthday. yayyyy
Ytd Ray turned a month young. How time flies.. Can't wait for him to be a year old where he'll be walking and running and wanting to grab every little thing he sees.
Last Friday, we went to bazaar Geylang with some of Husband's campmates. Finally met up with Hannah after so long but so sad she had to leave early. Then Fifi left afterwards with Man. We chilled by the pavement beside kampung melayu till late before heading home. Well so excited that Yan and I have settled with our 1st and 2nd day baju raya! :) Still have yet to settle Ray's. Have no idea what he's gonna wear for raya. Hmm..
Ohya dearest Fidah just got discharged from hospital today. I hope she's doing good. Was so hoping Maya would come out on the 7th :( Cheated my feelings.. hehe nvm hope her induction next monday will go well. Or as she hopes, for labor to come itself naturally. Which I hoped for that time before I got induced but oh well.. Please Maya hurry up auntie Dee nak meet you la!

Ok so tmr is our nation's birthday. What r ur plans? ^^

GOOD TIMES

2011-08-04T17:38:00.004+08:00

Last year's bazaar geylang outing

Raya outing 2 years back

Wonder how this year's gonna be like. Doubt there'll still be outings like this. But it's okay.. Always have my lovely mini family. Can't wait for our very own raya family portrait <3

BEING A YOUNG MOTHER

2011-08-02T22:18:00.001+08:00

As a mummy at young age, hell yeah I'm proud of it! Here's a lil something all young mummies would like yall to know :)

We never asked for it. We never did. But God decided to give us the gift of a child at this age. And guess what, I never knew how happy I would be for having such a beautiful baby.
The pain we go through.. Be it pregnancy, delivery and being a mother. It all seems easy peasy but be in our shoes and you'll know. The pain of suffering morning sickness for months.. Constant vomiting.. Braxton Hicks.. Gaining weight. All add up to mixed emotions which were quite depressing. But we handled it. The pain we suffer as we await for our baby's arrival. The killer contractions. The 'nyawa kat hujung kaki' pain when we pushed our lil one out into the world. Patience got us through it. And now being a mother, which is a start for me.. Eventhough it's only been 3 weeks but I'm always praying for strength. What I have to sacrifice just to let my child live. Sleepless nights.. Less time with friends. No more chilling and hanging out or shopping.. It was never planned. I always thought I'd have the time of my life at this age. Enjoying.. Clubbing perhaps since I'm already 18. Smoking like there's no tmr. Drinking. And what else? But I guess this is a way of God to make me stop my dumb habits. Which I'm thankful for.

I'm not saying that people who smoke, drink or club are dumb. But I feel that I love my life this way. Free from all those. On the brighter side, I save money! *winks*

So now tell me why people find it wrong that we are proud to have a child at our age? When they know nothing about what we go through. The pain we suffer. God never gave them these challenges cos God knows they're not up for it. But we are. And we are proud! Our parents may not be proud that their teen daughter got pregnant. But they are certainly proud to have such a strong daughter to have endured such obstacles in life. And the adorable grandchild they're gifted with. They are thankful and they are proud! You can ask my mama and papa. I'm sure they are. They may have cried or gotten furious in the beginning, but they're the strongest parents I can ever have. Accepting the fate God has given them. If you find it a shame or embarassment that we are proud of who we are, then you're ashamed of God's gift. This was our fate. God wanted us to be this way. And God has his reasons. Blame us for our mistakes, for all I care. But you will never know the true meaning of being a mother.. Until you become one. That is if you or your partner can produce babies (tak mandul). Neh just kidding! Well don't look down on us because you will never know what fate has in store for you..

AUGUST FIRST.

2011-08-01T18:18:00.005+08:00

Ray at 2 weeks hehe ^___^

Hi it's the start of the week, the month and puasa. Hang in there, buka time is in an hour's time!
Basically I just laze around today doing nothing much. Except for tweeting which is what I do best. *winks* It's kinda awkward, first day of puasa and not being with my family - my parents, siblings, maid... Sigh. It's a different atmosphere right here at my in-laws' place. Which is also my house. Hmm.. Nevermind. I will have my time with them soon.
Anyway Rayyan has been behaving well lately. Better, I suppose. I'm thankful. Hehe. Just a lil bit of mischief but oh well.. His usual nak taknak attitude. But one thing's for sure he's getting smarter by the day. Strong, too =) Oh and chubby! Majority says that Ray's face totally follows his dad. While there are still a couple of people who say he looks like his mummy. I'll have to agree he has Yan's lips. My friends say he has my eyes. So what do yall think? Let me know pls! Oh but anyway, mum says he looks just like me when I was a baby. I shall scan and post up some photos for yall to see pree soon okay! I've yet to share his ultrasound scan pics too.

Right now I'm craving for roti john. Bazaar geylang, you watch out aku nak makan dendeng and roti john and keropok lekor and burger ramly and mcm-mcm lagi this Friday. Muahahahaha ok not really la I need to maintain my body. My thighs are fat but Husband is being sucha cupcake to make it a point to scold me everytime I try to starve myself. Sayang, my thighs and ass are huge! :(

Look at how small he is in his other stroller :p He prefers his stroller than his playpen!

EVE OF RAMADHAN

2011-07-31T22:18:00.003+08:00

Hi fellow muslims, ready for puasa? =)

Okay I'm not being racist here. So how's everyone? The weekend was good. And quick, as usual. Sigh.. Husband is back in camp. But nevermind he'll be booking out on Thursday and then he has leave all the way till he flies off to Brunei.
So what did I do today? It was a pretty tiring day. But let's go back to yesterday first. It wasn't much, just that we brought Ray to the clinic cos he was having very bad nappy rash. At least to me it was and I was freaking out. Goodness it sends me shivers. But thank god it's healing fast now. Phew! Then today, we went to nenek's house early in the morning then Ray got his 2nd pram that Cik Elly gave as a gift. Thank you cik elly ^^ Ferrari sehhh kecik-kecik da naik Ferrari. Hahaha! Ray kaya pram uh dia, Bukit Batok ada Bukit Panjang pun ada. We left after noon for bazaar geylang cos I wanted to survey baju raya. And good thing was that it wasn't crowded. So my target was to search for the baju raya that I've been eyeing on for two years already but haven't buy! And I found itttttt =D
We checked the price and it was not bad. So we went on to search for Husband's. I was still thinking of that baju raya. This year my mini family is wearing turqoise. And I found Husband's turqoise kurung already. It was a good deal. Advantage of buying on the eve of puasa. I think. I came across a whole lot of baby baju kurung! Especially baby girl kebaya so damn cute! But the lot that sells the many many baby kurung had alot of variety. Sadly, even the smallest size 1 couldn't fit Ray. But it's okay we'll see if his body gets bigger when he's 1 mth plus old. Then I can get him turqoise kurung to match with his mummy and ayah. Sigh, boy follows his ayah la tall but kudut and fair. Nasib baik tak ikut mummy dia, pendek hitam. No la tanned la. Haha! :X
So after getting Husband's kurung and samping, went to finally buy the baju raya that I wanted. And I got it in faded pinkish peachy tone. Need to buy a separate outerwear which idk where. But it's okay will try to find perhaps next Friday when I go again with Husband and friends. I also have to get Husband kurung to match that colour. Woah responsibilites of a wife hahaha! Now I know how kinda stressful my mum always is especially finding baju raya for like, 7 members of the family?? This year minus one la.

Okay anyway, came across Myra my princess chey haha and I feel bad cos I forgot to salam her parents -.- But anyway I just get paranoid over these kinda things la I worry if my friends' parents find me disrespectful. And also came across Sabrina @bitterglits my tweetheart ;) As of right now I'm staying over at Yan's till he goes to Brunei. Thinking of the day I send him off at the airport.. sigh macam sedih gitu kan. Oh! I almost forgot. On Friday Fifi came over with Alfie and we kinda had fun although we didn't do what we planned. The kanchiong moment when both babies cry, it's like a disease. One baby cry, the other baby also cry. HOW R TWINS MANAGED?? O.O

My two lover boys ❤

HAPPY MOMENTS

2011-07-28T15:59:00.005+08:00

To be pregnant is to be vitally alive, thoroughly woman, and undoubtedly inhabited.
~ Anne Buchanan & Debra Klingsporn

Today is Thursday and it's amazing how time really flies. I bet I've said this a million times already. Tmr as usual, will be heading to Husband's place to stay there for the weekend. Anyway, was looking through dad's iphone last night and I found some photos taken at the hosp when I gave birth. So finally there's something to post and share with yall =)

Just been warded to ward 32 =)

Just woke up and was induced the prev night.. This was 6 July.

Texting and updating all my lovelies esp Husband.. Urging him to come quick.

Arrival of Rayyan Hayder ❤

KKH boy! =)

Bringing home baby

3 WEEKS

2011-07-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

*cough, cough* Hi everyone :) Not feeling so good. It's been a few days already. Thankfully I didn't fall ill.

So to be honest I've not yet gotten the full hang of taking care of Rayyan. Not by myself, alone, that is. But I have faith in me. Nothing is impossible, true? Ramadhan is just in a couple of days, which marks the start of August. Will be spending alot of time with Husband before he goes off on the 12th. Sigh, I might possibly cry on the night I send him off at the airport. Gonna give him a million kisses and hugs! Then I'll be raya shopping for baju raya, doing my hair and stuff.. So sexcited! I guess I really don't know what to expect for this year's raya it's gonna be a whole new experience. Obviously no more getting green packets. I would wanna give zakat to the kids but sadly I'm unemployed. I bet kids won't expect me to give them money anyway. Haha!
As of right now I'm tempted for the kueh raya. Yummm kueh tart and honey cornflakes and any choc-related kueh are my favourite! Especially the nutella ones.

Okay so anyway don't expect me to post many many pics of Ray cos the only chance I get to take photos of him is on random and I only use my low sucky quality camera phone -.- Perhaps when I'm finally not lazy to charge both my cameras will I take proper pics of him. Hopefully.

I know I've gotten chubbier sob sob

A NEW BEGINNING.

2011-07-18T17:00:00.001+08:00

The first week of post pregnancy hasn't been good. It's rather personal but well let's just say marriage life ain't easy.

Today I went to couple counselling with Husband. But don't worry we're on talking terms! We're doing great with each other and we're just planning ahead. Husband does all the financial planning on how we're gonna save up to own a car.. Not planning on buying a house, yet. Hmm, in little words, I'm having conflicts with my parents esp mum cos she disapproves of the way I make decisions. But I won't go into detail. I'm just hoping for a miracle. For God to give me patience to go through this. For mum to open her heart for me. At least this once. I don't want hate in the midst of Ramadhan. Raya is just around the corner. We all wanna be happy, right?
Anyway Husband is going off to Brunei next month in the middle of Puasa which is so sad :( I'm gonna surprise him with baju raya of my choice. Hehe he let's me choose whatever I wna choose. I already have something in mind for baby Ray. By the time he'd be almost 2 months already! We're gonna be this mini young family going Raya together.. Haha oh my god I just can't imagine it now. I know my parents and siblings will definitely feel a loss this year. Not that their first daughter and big sis is dead or anything -.- But celebrating first day of Raya without me would be such a sensitive issue to my parents. Really. No matter what first thing in the morning, I'll visit them with my mini family and seek for forgiveness. I have a feeling I'm gna cry but I need to maintain uh make up bro ;p

Ok my twitter is no longer protected cos there's no more reason for me to protect my tweets. Going for Rayyan's 2 weeks poly checkup this Wed with mum-in-law. So will go BB home this Wed after that ;) Mum really merajuk with me she's so sensitive -.- I miss Husband so much already eventhough we just met this morning. Sigh..

BIRTH STORY

2011-07-16T13:42:00.003+08:00

I am finally a mummy! =)

The experience... No one could explain in words. Only mums will understand how difficult it is to bring life to this world. So as expected, I got admitted on 5th July. It happened to be that my amniotic fluid level went from 5.9cm to 4.2cm.. And it was risky if I wasn't induced then. So I got admitted that evening.. Overly panicked, praying every second I could. Then I got induced at 10pm.. I was hoping luck would be on my side, expecting to be dilated that night itself so I could give birth quickly. The contractions were a killer. I was tryna be a heroin to not ask for any painkillers. It was a mistake.

So then I was monitored in the delivery suite and I was praying and praying, and sadly Husband wasn't there for me due to some necessary events. And I really wanted to get it over with. But I guess lil handsome boy still wanted to wait for his Ayah. Oh well.. Haha! It was Wednesday then and I waited for Husband to rush to hospital to accompany me in labor ward and when he finally came, I wanted to cry. But I maintain uh.. Seriously I wanted to cry tears of joy. Lucky for me there's one labor ward vacant for myself. I couldn't believe it. Being in labor ward. Just wondering when the time will come. Expecting it to happen as soon as possible cos the pain was just unbearable. I was only 1cm dilated by around Wednesday late afternoon.

Hours and hours passed.. And by midnight, I was finally dilated even more. Like around 3-6cm? The doctor finally broke my waterbag. The pain got even worst. I finally asked for painkillers cos the contractions... were killers! Husband slept through while waiting. I fell into short naps too. Then by 5am my midwife checked and saw baby's head. She allowed another hour to pass before putting me into labor. And by 5.50am I was already in labor. I kept reading prayers, and Husband who was really very afraid to witness it was being a hero to atleast be there to gimme some support. Pushing and pushing, I kept myself silent. Only cramp-ish pushing facial expressions. Hehe! I kept my faith up high, I prayed to God. I wanted to get it over with.. And by 6.05am baby was out. Syukur Alhamdulillah. The relief I felt was unimaginable.

They sucked whatever in baby's mouth before I heard his first cry. I wanted to cry.. Okay atleast I teared. I couldn't bend to see him. I was so excited. After a minute of checking baby's weight and stuff, they placed baby on my chest for skin-to-skin contact. I swear I loved that moment. How fair he was, like soya bean! His lips reddish pink. His pupils so round and large. That's my baby boy! :')

So yeah, after he was cleaned up, swaddled up, the midwife handed baby over to Husband for him to azankan. And after awhile the doctor came to stitch up my ehem. And it was.. oh my gosh. Painful okay! Husband said he freaked out when he saw how sadistic the female doctor was stitching up my private part using a ''fish hook'' sewing needle. Lol

Born on 07/07/2011, 0605, 2.6kg :)

13 MORE DAYS? OR 1??

2011-07-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

This is a late night post specially for all my dear readers and might be the last before I'm gna start being a busy mummy :)

Last Thursday was my check-up and to my shock, doctor advised me to induce labor. But sadly I didn't go for it cos it was too sudden and I felt that I wasn't pretty much prepared mentally and also in terms of baby stuff. Well first I had my ultrasound scan, then baby was 2.5kg. Which is light! And then proceed with my consultation where you guessed it, had my cervix checked if its dilated hahaha worst part I hated most and nope it's not dilated yet. Doctor said that my water lvl in waterbag, is again, low. Below average of 6kg, which was 5.9 kg. Which is risky for baby since baby might get stressed. Furthermore baby is matured and it was a good time to give birth. I didn't know what to think so I had to say no so doctor lemme get a CTG done to monitor baby's heartbeat for 30 minutes before allowing me to delay till Tuesday since baby's heartbeat was constant, showing that he's active. So yes, I can't wait for Tuesday where I'm most probably gna give birth :) I was so scared that day, but now I'm super excited and I'm waiting as patiently as I can for it. Hearing that my dear friend Lyna also have birth already makes me even more excited! If I had agreed to give birth that day, our babies would have the same birthdates! hehehe but nvm, I guess it's not fated. Well congrats to my dearest on delivering her baby boy Nabeel Ashaz, 2.3kg, on 1st July 2011. Amin.
So anyway Tuesday gonna get another u/s done to check the water lvl, if its still low I'm gna proceed with induce. If it shoots up to normal, I can wait till due date but I'll just advance it still anyway. Thank goodness Husband will be able to be there for me and I'm rly hoping for a safe and smooth delivery. Trying hard not to think of any negative thoughts which could pull my spirit down since I'm very super-spirited right now! I'm always expecting to feel contractions and like every pain I feel I'd expect it to be contraction and I'd hope.. baby pls come out tonight. Haha that's how excited I am!! Baby's playpen and everything is ready so baby R, we're ready for you!

Well anyway, I've been monitoring his movements and he's just fine syukur alhamdulillah. He's especially active at night! And oh yes! Mum soaked the rumput Siti Fatimah in water ytd morning, it remained "kuncup" but then in the afternoon my brother shocked me when he showed that it had blossomed! So baby is really gonna come out anytime now. Hehe. Had a short conversation with nenek, advising me this and that telling me to drink more water esp the air selusuh and air perigi that nenek got for me, selawat 3 kali doa mintak safe delivery... Nenek is my heroine. She really is. Okay so probably after this I might not be able to update but Fifi would do the honour since I invited her as my blog author :)

Pray hard for me, sweethearts love you guys xx

@37w1d

2011-06-27T15:44:00.000+08:00

Wow! I've been quiet for some time... How's everyone? :)

I have finally graduated from marriage course. Yay! Have yet to collect original marriage cert at ROMM. Hmm all these kinda things are just so troublesome. My recent checkup last Thursday was great. Thankfully no weird awkward examinations done this time round, phew! Only the regular checking of baby's heartbeat, baby's approx current weight which is 2+kg and water level in my waterbag. Besides that, I don't know why I didn't get my results for OGTT but I dare not ask for it. And yes, my weight now is 55.6kg. Is it? I can't recall but I know its 55 point something. After that, went for baby shopping at this place called Baby Kingdom in Kaki Bukit. It was fun! Though I have yet to buy a few more stuffs before baby's checklist is complete. Gonna continue next Thursday on my next appointment.

So as you can see, my due date's nearing. Therefore I'll have to attend checkup on a weekly basis. And there is a possibility they're gonna check how dilated my cervix is. Which is the worst part of a checkup for me. Ewww. Ugh! But I'll have to go through it anyway. This Thursday I'm gna have an ultrasound scanning to check the placenta placing whatever thingy. In fewer words, to check the actual formal weight of my baby now. This time round I will tryyyy my best to demand for more photos, clearer ones. Hehehe. I'm gna be due soon, of course I want more pics of baby for memory!

Anyway USS with in-laws two Saturdays back was as usual, exhausting. I shan't say boring but being an expectant mum I can't play majority of the rides so yeah, you can say that it's another boring session for me. But I'm thankful that I had to spend time with my dearest husband and a cute lil boy who is so degil semacam but makes me cry everytime I think of him cos I miss him so much right now. ;'( Nobody can understand how much I love that kid, eventhough we only spent the weekends together. I'm glad that he's with his dad now. Thank god. If not, Yan and I were like his.. err... so-called mummy and daddy. Hehe. I guess I felt the deep love towards him cos I can't wait for my lil babyboy to arrive. Very very excited!
K that's it. I didn't go into much detail cos I'm afraid if I type too much. ❤

Miss you, Haidar :(

31 MORE DAYS BABYYYY

2011-06-16T16:42:00.003+08:00

My snooki so sweet I love you xx

As usual, days won't always go the way you planned.
So, many stuff has been delayed/postponed. Well it's okay. Life always has unforeseen circumstances...

10th - 3rd wedding monthsary, marriage course on perancangan keluarga, rooms painted.
13th - FIFI'S 17th BIRTHDAYYYY and moneywise course part 2 which was much more interesting cause we played this game in teams and the people were damn hilarious. One part the talker pronouced tow as "tau" then one guy in the back said "ape sia tau, belum kena belum tau" Then I forced myself not to laugh lol
14th - laminates done.
15th - husband got to book out for awhile and chill at my crib before going back to camp at night.
TODAY - nak pergi kkh amek ubat tk jadi -.-

Yela asik delay je aku ni. I mean, not that I don't want to go. I'm supposed to buy something for husband also. But when I got the mood to go out, everyone else cannot accompany me. Sad life #foreveralone. My sis didn't sleep last night so she had to sleep in the day. Then my friends all busy. ): Oh well. Mum don't lemme go out by myself. She's worried if anything happens to me awww~
I've decided tmr morning I will really go I promise. With my sister, if my friends still cannot make it. Then I'll buy yan's stuff then quickly head home since he's gonna bkout most probably after lunch as usual. If not, in the morning. Ohya so anyway baby shopping was cancelled last Saturday. But this time it's really confirmed mum gonna make it up on the day of my next appointment which is next Thursday. Idk why I'm just worried about not getting baby stuff on time. Oh! And marriage course graduation is changed to next Saturday instead of Friday. Woah so many schedule changes.. Okay so tmr is another marriage course and tmr gonna sleepover at Yan's. Saturday, going USS zomygosh! Tak kesampaian aku nak beli shorts utk pakai.

Anyway I'm craving for mos burger's teriyaki burger and mac's apple pie :(

My room - for now :)

SWEETEST

2011-06-07T19:19:00.000+08:00

Sigh I miss this gf of mine. Sejak I pregnant je, I terketepikan dia. Bukan I sengaja, but I was just too caught up with so many other things. Yes, I miss you too dearest. And you are one of the first 5 people I'm gna inform upon delivering my baby boy. Hehe be there okay! Love you always xx

40 DAYS LEFT TO GO.. OR SO WE THINK.

2011-06-07T18:36:00.001+08:00

Eh Alfie, why you so kiut miut tiut ah? Make me geli hati only watch your videos. HEHE :B

Okay hi so I pray reaaally hard for baby to come out on the 10th of July. I know I can't ask for these kinda things but who knows I'll really get my wish? Insyallah.
Okay daddy is in a pretty good mood today cause he finally demolished the partition and skirtings of my bros' room. And cornice also. Hehe learnt a few new words here. Then perhaps tmr dad's gonna clear the skirtings of my room. Omg it's gonna be so dusty. And he said he'll probably start painting both rooms tmr! Yay sexcited habissss. I can't wait to get my new wardrobe and all then I'll set up baby's nursery it's gna be super adorable la! Anyway Yan and I are left with 5 more sessions of marriage course and then we graduate!
This month is gonna be super awesome + busy.

*Baby shopping this Saturday
*USS with in-laws on the 18th
*Hosp appointment on 23rd
*Graduate khursus rumahtangga on 24th

okay actually that's abt it but I feel that it's gna be so packed maybe cause I'll be in the process of setting up baby's wardrobe and room and cot etc. As of the end of June I'll be super nervousss! And from the moneywise course ytd, I learnt a few good things to keep in mind about budgetting which includes wants and needs, cpf, baby bonus. Yayyyy can't wait for govt's contribution muahaha! Oh and the moneywise counselling last week was interesting followed by the perancangan keluarga course was very scary mary cos they showed delivery vids on Youtube incl a c-section & aborted baby pics :O Yan and I dare not watch.

OH MY GOD. 44 MORE DAYS! :O

2011-06-03T13:10:00.001+08:00

Yaknow why I fell in love with my husband? Look at how handsome he is. Hehe. Well at least to my eyes, he's the most handsome guy ever. First we were just boyfriend and girlfriend.. Now we're officially husband and wife! It's amazing how time flies and how fate brought us together. Every raya marks a wonderful moment in our life. Because that was when we first met in 2008 :) Oh and the above picture was 2 years back when our dads were just getting to know each other.

So today Yan and I will be having our 3rd/last counseling session which is on moneywise. Yay! It starts at 5 then our next course session at 7.30. Again with my don't-know-what-to-wear-like-seriously! And thinking about time.. We're graduating our marriage course on 24th June. And 23rd is my next check-up. THEN JUNE IS OVERRRRRRRR. OH MY GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.
I'm seriously worried about getting baby stuff on time. I really have to complete baby's checklist by end of June. And how it worries me most of the time in case baby comes out super early like, in June itself?? I pray hard not. Then I'll probably have a couple more checkups on early July before I am finally due :O
I have a feeling June is gonna go by really fast. So scary! And dad has to complete doing my room by end of June too! Still not confirmed on where to place the baby cot. And I'm always praying for baby to come out on 10th July. Hehe I know it's not quite possible to tell him when he should come out. I'm just hoping.. And yes, I pee ALOT ALOT of times so I'm really hoping baby has thich hair :p

Okay so anyway I found this old picture.. It reminds me of us still in the middle of so many fights and arguments. Outings with those people was a must, everytime! Now everyone's just dealing with our own biz. Especially us, now that we have better and more important things to settle. I kinda miss the bus rides and listening to reggae songs, Daddy Yankee songs to be exact! And I swear the way I dress up is just so ridiculous!

ALFIE BABY.

2011-06-01T13:30:00.000+08:00

Hi I finally have the mood to blog :)

So anyway, we ended up not being able to visit Fifi last Sunday. Cause Yan was too tired from coming back so late like at 4am then we watched tv and slept at 6am. Then it happened to be that Fifi got discharged from hospital earlier than expected.
On Monday, Yan and I had our 4th marriage course session and our TJTA counseling. The counseling was interesting. As they were able to analyze our personalities and it was all true. The marriage course was also quite fun cause we were required to draw a vision of the future in our marriage. Yan's was simple and plain.
He just wrote in the middle of the paper "ORD = (: ". As for me I drew a garden with flowers and rainbows etc. And 3 types of flowers had 3 flowers of each type which represents my family - Yan, son and I. Then I folded the paper into a heart and wrote my name on it. If you're genius enough I was tryna imply that "Dalam hatiku ada taman". Lol. My vision for our future is filled with positivity and the colourful garden shows how much I want my future family to be filled with happiness and love. Chey chey. Hehe
So the speaker concluded that to have the beautiful garden in my heart, Yan has to go through ORD to find a stable job and everything then we can achieve that happy family.
So anyway Yan ended up surprising me with the fact that he was allowed to book in the next day. Damn you! I seriously thought he had to go back to camp by 10. -.- So he decided to sleepover my place so that the next day mum and dad could send him to camp first. And that comes to Tuesday!

Woke up pretty early. I swear I was very sleepy and tired but also nervous for my OGT test. We left home at 8 then sent Yan back to camp. How I wished our everyday life was like that. Waking up everyday seeing my husband's face. Getting to hug and kiss him. Sigh.. But nvm. Then sent dad off to work and mum drove me to KKH. I was so scared but when I got my first blood test, I was like "oh itu aje?" Haha! They only took a syringe of blood. Then I had to swallow a whole cup of glucose water and then waste 2 hours walking arnd KK before taking my next blood test. It was kinda boring cos I can't eat nor drink. I was starving! Surveyed the shops and also bought for myself big breakfast before it's over. And I was so happy that I could meet Fifi! Coincidentally she had to come over to meet her s.w and bring her baby home finally! But we just met up for awhile before proceeding to my next blood test. Waited and waited. Finally got my 2nd blood test and the nurse shot at the same spot -.- My left arm went numb for a few hours. It was much more pain then the first round. BUT THANK GOD IT'S FINALLY OVER.
Now just pray hard that I get a good result okay! It was then time to go up to ward 34 and meet my sweetie with her baby! Along with her nenek and bibik btw. Yes, upon reaching I didn't know what to do. I was so scared to even touch Alfie. HAHA laugh all you can but I am not used to handling babies just yet. Then we chatted for awhile, mum chatted with Fi's nenek. Then I got Fifi to carry Alfie then I tried carrying OMG so scary! But it was such a loving moment. I dare not to move much in case Alfie wakes up and cry. It was only for a few minutes before I gave back to Fi then mum had her turn to carry Alfie. Hehe why baby so adorable!!

After chatting and updating each other, mum and I finally left since mum needa go work at 2. She sent me home, I ate my biggy breakfast and slept. CAN'T - WAIT - FOR - MY - TURN.

HURT.

2011-05-29T00:21:00.002+08:00

Hello it's 11 minutes past midnight. I'm supposed to be asleep but I'll spare some time to post something up!

I just helped Fifi change her baby calculator :) And I thought of updating for her maybe her baby's pic but I'll give her the privilege to share it with her readers herself. Later if I update for her she think I macam tktau malu pulak nak blog pasal hidup die :p So currently my body is aching terribly and I really need rest soon. The body cramps are so painful that I feel kinda worried sometimes. And just to let yall know, husband came back for awhile just now to get his belt, change his flipflops and drink my special yummy iced milo before he left for Johor. Praying hard he makes a safe trip back home hopefully he won't come across any bad people there. Insyallah.
Just now, I was very very emotional. No words could describe my feelings. It's like this mixed emotions that I'm unsure of. When I saw Alfie's pic I cried abit. And when Fifi posted up his crying video, I cried even harder. I don't know why and what kind of feeling it is. It's like I'm really happy for my dearest friend and I was also accumulated with my own doubts and worries and excitement and nervousness. It's just so weird how I could cry like I just had a big fight with my husband. I guess I kept the tears for too long. Irregardless for whatever reason..

So that's about it. I hope Fifi has a great rest and I have no idea what time my husband gonna come home. Just hope that I could wake up when he calls me to open the door. For now I also need my rest because I'm just one confused girl and my body is really really tired. Goodnight!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY AND ALFIE :)

2011-05-28T15:52:00.004+08:00

Baby Alfie :) awwwww~

Today is a very special day. My dad turns 45 and a cutie is born! I am so happy for Fifi on her safe and smooth, not to forget fast delivery! She must be a strong mummy :)
Last night at midnight, my siblings and mum gathered up to sing dad a surprise birthday song. He was indeed surprised. Hehe. Then when I woke up at 8.30 just now, I got a text from Fifi's hubby saying that she has delivered. And the text was received at 6.23. Irregardless what time, I was so relieved and ecstatic for her. It's like finally a friend of mine has gone through what I am very very afraid to go through. Congratulations my dear. You've been strong all these while, now is your time to chill, go through the dalam hari, and you can start wearing tight clothes again and go USS! Hehe.

So this morning woke up early to get ready for our counselling on peranan dan tanggungjawab. Awkward moment of the day = The ustaz who counselled us was our tok kadi time nikah. -.-
We didn't know at first. Yan said he felt like he's seen him before. And as for me, I really don't memorize people's face. I mean I didn't even see the kadi's face properly that day. He was asking us who our kadi was and I confidently said Maa'rof. And he asked us a few more questions before identifying himself as Maa'rof. Jeng jeng jeng. I thought he was kidding then yeap, it really was him. It took me quite awhile to really recall his face. So anyway the counselling was kinda pointless actually. Idk what it's for. He just asked us both about our family background and all. Probably to analyze whatever he can. He was scribbling notes on his notebook. And lil did I know that he was scribbling them in jawi. Lol, Yan had to tell me before I knew it. So after that hour of sharing stories, it ended and it happened to be that there was a slot for moneywise counselling. Unfortunately Yan has to attend something at 12 onwards so we just settled it to next Friday and the TGTA counselling on next Monday.
Anyway, yesterday was our 3rd marriage course session. It was second part of the peranan dan tanggungjawab topic. And one part which I can still recall till today was when the Ustaz asked us what are the things which cause problems in marriage. One of the guys answered "main belakang". The guys at the back were already laughing and I can't help but giggled abit. Come on la. Main belakang sounds so wrong!

So that was pretty much it about yesterday. Didn't make friends, still. Couldn't be bothered anyway. So husband is away till night. If he wasn't busy I bet I could come visit Fifi at kkh already. Oh well, see you tmr dear! We cancelled our picnic date just to see you and your adorable baby! Fidah also coming along with Miaa :) yay! xx

@32w4d

2011-05-26T23:43:00.009+08:00

My husband can never learn how to see ultrasound pics -.- This one quite unclear anyway.

Today's check up was very scary and it kinda gave me trauma like I don't wanna go to any other future check ups.

You can say that I'm quite a scaredy cat. Yes I am. And I hate pain. But in life, we have to go through alot of pain. For women in particular, the pain throughout and after pregnancy. That's why, always remember how much pain your mum had gone through just to bring you to this world.
First of all, I am now 53.6kg. Which is a very low increase. Then for the second time in a row, there's sugar in my urine. And the doctor said that my waterbag level is low, so she performed a fucking pap smear to me! I hate it I hate it. K, so whiny. But yea I hate it. It was painful and gross. They thought that I was leaking water or smth. I think if my mum didn't left me for awhile the doctor won't even do it to me. Cos yaknow some doctors like to take advantage and then like, prescribe medicines I don't rly need and all. Yes, she sent me to an ultrasound. And then I got a copy of baby's face. The doctor also made me go to this OGT test which requires two blood tests in a row. Gahhh I hate blood tests! And I'm hoping that I don't have diabetes or smth la pls. I kept on thinking more than twice before wanting to eat and drink anything! So after everything the doctor said that my waterbag level is acceptable. And baby's weight is currently 1.6kg. Hehe so light!
Overall I feel that it was a really traumatic experience but oh well, I have to face all this cause I'm gna experience delivery anyway. OGTT on Tuesday. Husband collecting csc card on Monday. Yayyyy hospital fees are free! :D

So anyway after the check up, went to Geylang with mum and dad. Bought dendeng and putu piring. Yummm and then dropped by IMM to collect my necklace then headed home. Looking forward to get the OGT test over and done with!

BAY B.

2011-05-25T16:31:00.006+08:00

So if yall want to know, Yan and I have known each other since we were kids. Toddlers. Prove? The picture above shows us talking on the phone. Obviously baby talk. Gu gu ga ga. Haha okay macam paham only. But coincidentally, the date of Yan's photo taken was 2 days after I was born. Hehe :B Anyway, today is another stay home weekday. Tmr thought of going down to Ecp just to kpo kpo watch my husband route march back and fourth, end to end of the park. But he said it'd be pointless. So nevermind then. I have an appointment at KKH tmr anyway. And as much as I'd expect Fifi's appointment to be tmr also, unfortunately she got a slot on Friday. Alaaaa.. Hopefully she give birth by this week la pls, baby lama sangat tu kat dalam.

This week's upcoming events: Marriage course on Friday, counselling on Saturday. Oh oh! Dad's birthday on Saturday which I'm planning to make a surprise party for him. Then Sunday, going for a picnic dating with my lovely husband at Sentosa. Can't wait!

So anyway, that girl in the pic below inpires me.. To dress up during pregnancy. But everytime I feel like dressing up, mesti macam-macam tak kena. Baju tkde, baju ketat. Nak make-up pun rimas. Macam-macam lah. And yeah, I really really miss long hair. Thought of hair and lash extensions after pregnancy, during puasa maybe. But I'm sure to end up not taking good care of them like my previous attempts. Nanti rimas la, ape la. Rambut kusut la. Yes it will cause my hair to spoil, again. -.- I'll have to think about it..

LOEWE-.TUMBLR.COM

2011-05-25T15:58:00.002+08:00

I rummaged through my tumblr archive and woah! I'm finally able to see all the photos I've posted since March 2010. And I clearly remembered my first tumblr was made much earlier but due to a major fight with Yan, I had to delete my tumblr and twitter account. So loewe-.tumblr was made when I decided to ignore Yan eventhough he don't let me own a tumblr. Same goes for my current twitter account. But thank god it's all okay now.

So here are a few pics that I found.. Which brought back so much memories.

Zaman Yan and I couple maple freak >,<

Zaman lepak playground bwh blk Yan.

Zaman suke make-up for fun kat rumah.

Zaman ton kat rumah abgman.

Zaman ikut Yan pergi recording.

Zaman Yan suke amik gmbar webcam and suruh aku post kat tumblr.

Zaman keluar mesti kene pakai falsies.

Zaman kerja main-main.

Zaman carik kerja with these two makcik kecoh.

Zaman suke dressup and go town.

Zaman aku kurus and rambut naturally panjang. Hisap rkk takut-takut psl tk lepas -.-

Zaman get drunk and high with Yan kat playground.

Zaman aku banyak emo psl banyak gaduh dlm r/s.

But now all those are just memories. History. So amazing how time flies and how Yan and I are officially married and awaiting our first child. A son. Almost 3 years down this road, I have enjoyed so much being with Yan. Being his girlfriend. Now let's see what photos are in store for me to look back 3 years later as husband and wife. Oh no, no. Daddy and mummy :)

VLOG 2

2011-05-24T00:39:00.001+08:00

Hehe nasib korang lah boleh dengar clear ke tak whatever I spoke. Feel the need to share about my 2nd day of marriage course and if I don't blog about it, I'd definitely delay it till I have so much more to say. Baby was super active as usual. Yan laid his hand on my tummy and baby kept kicking.
So yeah if yall can't hear, use earpiece!! (;